I’m currently s3 and I’d say that I win my laning most of the time but everytime I hold tab or look at the kills, my team is always losing or is in a disadvantage state. Like Litteraly last time I played I had a botlane that was 5/35 out of 49 team deaths. I know that I can also play better but I’d like a general idea of how hard it would be to rank up playing top?
My relationship ended about a month and a week ago and I learned that she got bored of the relationship and wanted to end it but just didn’t want to without a reason, so she led me on and ended it by making me the villain of the story.
Pretty much what happened was that she got bored of the relationship and wanted to end it but led me on because there was no good reason, so she distanced herself from me and even ghosted me for a week, I’m not sure why I tolerated it, and then decided to ghost me again because a friend butted into my relationship. This ultimately ended up in me getting angry and long story short, she called me a terrible person because I yelled at a friend for getting into my business which I shouldn’t have done. FYI I’m 18M
I’d like to think I’m over her now, I don’t really get flashbacks of her anymore and when I do it doesn’t really hurt. I did definitely try my hardest to heal, I sat with my emotions and reflected on what I did wrong and what she did wrong, not blaming entirely myself or her, I did everything I could to not only understand my emotions but learn what I want from myself and learn how to BE myself again without need the validation of others, I’m learning to love myself again like how I used to be. But despite this when night hits I start thinking about her more and it’s only when night hits, even if I’m not distracted throughout the day I don’t really think of her, but for some reason I only get these feelings at night and it confuses me, I start getting this intense feeling of missing the fact that someone could be there for me even though she clocked out ages before, it makes me feel like I won’t find another partner again.
I know people say time heals and that I just need time since it was only about a month and a week ago and the relationship itself was around 9 months, but it hurt when she broke up with me using that reason, im a mosaic of everything that has happened to me and I tried so hard to assemble myself again but whenever I start missing that feeling of her I feel like my pieces will come falling out again.