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My AP that I have been talking with almost daily for six months deleted his account without notice. That feels really permanent and intentional to hurt me. Admittedly there have been periods of hot and cold with us but I never figured he would full on delete all accounts and cut off all routes of contact.

I sit here beating myself up. If I would have done xyz differently maybe there would be a different outcome. If I wouldn’t have said that, if I would have showed up differently that day etc etc. My mind keeps replaying the past, I feel shocked even though I guess I shouldn’t.

In addition to feeling heartbroken, there’s no one to talk to about it. I just have to show up everyday to work the same as always, but feeling like a meaningful piece of my life is now just missing. I put a lot of myself out there for him and I feel discarded like trash, which maybe is just karma for doing this.

I don’t want anyone else right now, it was only him. So I guess it’s somehow trying to move on and find healthier sources of dopamine in my life. But I know it’s going to take a long time for me to recalibrate—nothing “hits” quite like a good conversation with your AP.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Since eating higher protein a few years ago I can pretty much effortlessly maintain my BMI at 21, A1c was <5. However cholesterol is….BAD. I know it Must be genetic predisposition because my husband eats a similar diet and his is normal range. I do usually eat several eggs per day, chicken, turkey, sometimes ground beef, Greek yogurt, a latte with milk or coffee with half and half (which I know does add fat but…almond milk is disgusting lol)

I don’t eat keto or go out of my way to eat fatty meats, but I know the animal products in my diet likely add up in terms of fat content. I still do eat some whole food starches such as sweet potatoes etc and a ton of veggies. I’m hesitant to change my diet because I feel good and my weight is good but my LDL was very high. My doctor actually wasn’t concerned because she said I am metabolically healthy and in great shape otherwise, but I don’t want to put myself at risk in the future. I am considering adding plant sterols but interested if anyone has other suggestions!

I’m trying to better understand the law. I feel like most posts are about manifesting desired outcomes, but what about unexpected circumstances?

Surely, when most people get in their car, they assume they will make it from point a to point b with certainty. So why do car accidents then happen? What about other sudden unexpected losses etc? I’m sure most people that lose their home in a fire for example, never imagined that was possible and they assume their home is safe and secure.

Not sure if these are dumb questions but I’m just trying to better understand how the law works.