u/Super_Employ_8532

Ever since I gave birth to my first child over 4 years ago, I've suffered from insomnia. I can typically fall asleep fine (even though it takes a long time) but my issue is I wake up about 3 hours later and then am wide awake the rest of the night, tossing and turning, and mind racing. It's miserable. I've tried melatonin, unisom, and trazodone. Trazodone has worked in the past but I don't want to be beholden to prescription medications if possible. I did just discover my vitamin D levels are on the low end (level came back at 22). My doctor thinks insomnia could be anxiety related and that therapy would help, but I don't think I'm awake due to anxiety. I'm just wide awake and wired. Has anyone experienced something similar and what helped?

My baby was just diagnosed with a cows milk protein allergy due to finding blood in his stools. The doctor asked us to go on a hypoallergenic formula. Only problem is, he is refusing to take them. We've tried Elecare and Similac Alimentum. He pushes the bottle out of his mouth and just screams. As soon as I give him Bobbie (which is the formula he's been on) he will take it. If you've been in a similar situation, what did you do?

TW: mentions 2 living children
Backstory: I had to TFMR my pregnancy with my baby girl almost 2 years ago due to triploidy. (diagnosed shortly after 20 week anatomy scan)
I am so grateful that I have 2 boys, I had my first prior to my triploidy pregnancy, and after a long journey I just recently had my second boy through IVF. While I realize I am blessed to have two living children, it still hurts every day that I don't have my baby girl here with me. I almost wonder if my second boy had been a girl, that it wouldn't hurt as bad. It feels like I lost her all over again by having a boy. In a weird way, I thought she'd "come back to me" if this new baby had been a girl. I'm also now a full on boy mom and it's hard getting the comments about me being a boy mom, when people don't realize I also had a girl. It's still hard to walk down the girl clothes and toy isles at the store. Is anyone in the same boat and has also essentially dealt with gender disappointment or disappointment in what life was supposed to look like, but doesn't?