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I’ve decided to starve myself today but the pain doesnt go away only temporarily does it distract me from it.

I’ve always hallucinated under stress ever since seven usually violent ones it’s usually coupled with dissociation. I don’t get why I do. Does everyone get psychosis under stress. No medication has ever helped. It’s purely stress.

I’m on 2mg of resperidone for epilepsy induced psychosis. But the thing is the resperidone never affected what I assume is stressed induced hallucinations of blood, and internal voices of teenager adults or children and hallucinations of people (if it gets really bad). As long as I am not stressed it won’t happen. But you’d thing having an anti psychotic would lessen the stress induced one too. Has anyone else experienced this.

I hallucinated horrifying abusive scenes like being cut and having fake blood dumped and my legs getting tortured in their house or hospital or garage by people I knew and/or imaginary people. When I was 18 they came back as repressed memories and I thought they were real but then later I realized they were hallucinations because the perpetrators kept on changing in the memories (no ways I got abused by the entire church the neighborhood and my entire family). I keep on having flash backs to these fake memories I don’t know what this is even called. Has anyone else experienced this. I feel stupid why am I scared by these hallucinations they Wernt even real.