aitba for lokey hating my friend
My friend, let's call her Jessica, threw a party yesterday. It was so fun. Everyone had an amazing time.
This boy Jessica had been trying to get to come to the party, let's say his name was John, ended up coming with one of his friends. They was very cuddly and close when the party started, and he had his arm around her. I even went up to him and was like, "Hey, are you gonna kiss her?" or whatever. And he was like, "Maybe." I was like, "I think you should," trying to get them together.
When they did kiss, I was the happiest person. I was jumping about, I was screaming, I was taking pictures. I was so happy for her.
The same night, this boy, let's call him Lucas, was telling all his friends how he wanted to kiss me and how I should give him a chance. I even heard his friend talking about it, and he was like, "What did she say? What did she say?" And he was trying for a good hour and a half-ish.
Now, Lucas had a relationship with one of the girls who I used to be friends with, but she did do me really bad. But I was like, I couldn't do that to her. Everyone was saying, "Just do it, just do it." And I know it's, like, really bad, but I do just think it was a one-off, and I'm probably a really bad person for doing that.
But we did kiss. It was a really good kiss, everything 10/10.
When I tried telling Jessica about it, I went up to her. She was sitting on the boy's lap that she kissed, and I was like, "Can I pull you for a chat?" jokingly, like how they say in Love Island. She was like, "No, you can't." And he was like, "What?" she said. And I was just like, "Oh, okay," and I left.
I really wanted to talk to her about it because we both experienced fun things, I guess, for the night, but she just didn't wanna talk about it.
Then the party ended, really fun, whatever.
Then today I was talking to her, and she was talking about her night, and I was trying to suddenly hint that I wanted to talk about mine, and she just left me on opened. Then she just texted again saying how she misses the boy that she kissed, and now we're having this long conversation about it.
I just wanna talk about mine as well, like my night. Although I'm really, really happy for her, and, like, I'm happy to talk about it, it's just like it's not all the time. Like, I wanna get a couple words out, and she hasn't honestly asked me once about what happened with me and this boy, even though she knows briefly what happened because he was all sitting down. I was like, "Yeah, we kissed," or whatever.
She just doesn't care. She only focuses on herself.
We literally had an argument a couple weeks back, and it was, like, possibly the end of our friendship. It was over stuff like this: just never considering other people's feelings, dismissing other people, and just talking about herself and making out as if she's always the prize and the one who's right.
We literally got over it, but it's just bringing all these feelings back.
And I know my actions probably wasn't the best, but, like, I still wanna talk about it. I wanna get another person's opinion, and I can't really.
So I'm not overly mad at it. I just wanna see what other people say, even if I am still in the wrong.