u/SweatyCookie5112

VENT obviously.

It pisses me off so fucking much when I see pretty women call themselves femcels. like obviously we are all suffering under the same shitty patriarchal system and moids either see women as subhuman or sexual objecs and in the end yes women never win but conventionally pretty women will never ever ever understand just how much vitriol that society has for ugly fat foids like me. it fills me with hatred when i see skinny pretty women talk about how moids catcall and give them sooo much unwanted attention like boo hoo how sad for you.

People don't look at you like you're scum of the earth or the dog shit at the bottom of your shoe. you can easily get laid if you want to. i fucking hate it when a pretty "femcel" says that they're socially anxious and hates men and so she's a femcel like the literal definition of femcel is a female incel aka involuntarily celibate. girl You have a fitspo body that fits into brandy maville don't fucking play with me right now you can get laid any time you want if you so want it. You just hate moids which i agree but you are celibate because you hate men i am celibate because even the ugliest stinkiest most gargoylian moids don't want me.

It's not just the moids that fucking hate my existence btw even the women do. When I finally brewed the courage to go to a wlw meetup i was ignored and they all looked at me like I didn't shower for 10 days and smear shit on my face every morning. You'd think these women are men by the way they looked at my disgusting fat folds. obviously only the pretty women talked amongst themselves.

I groom myself, I buy outfits (on shein because no fucking normal clothes fit me) and I even cook and bake well enough to have my own online bakery where I never show my face because I know if I do I'd get fatshamed and people would think my food is unhygienic. But the world still treats me like im a fucking basement dweller who posesses lolicon material or something. Yesterday at the grocery store a mother hid her kid from me like do i look like a convict.

Yes I am jealous. i wish i was one of those pretty women who "claim" to be "femcels" when they have the body and face of someone who would be set for life in this fucking shitty patriarchy. I wish my voice was cute and not like a billowing pig. I wish I was skinny and beautiful and people didn't look at me like I was dirt. I am so jealous and full of hate for beautiful women who larp like they're a foid idc if im gatekeeping or whatever. my culture is not your fucking costume. If I were beautiful my life would be 1000x easier and you have to admit it is true.

I know I shouldn't be so hateful towards my fellow women but it pisses me off so much. It's to the point where I see successful women online and when my skinny pretty friends in real life gets a boyfriend or a job i can't stop myself from thinking "it's because youre physically attractive. if you looked like me would your boyfriend still love you? will the companies still hire you?" i hate that i dismiss their wins and achievements and diminish it to their looks but i also know if they looked like me their shitty boyfriends they love so much wouldn't even cast them a second glance. idk how to stop feeling this way. i genuinely don't see the light anymore. not even weight loss or plastic surgery can save me now. maybe this is a cry for help. idk anymore. i hate pretty women i want to be them. maybe i am the true moid all along.

My area has a relatively small geocaching community, but there are these 4 veteran cachers who are elitist snobs. They look down on anyone who doesn't share their opinions on how to play this game. Yet because their caching skills are the best in the area and they're super active, everyone wants to be on their good side and tolerate their mean spirited words.

Now a personal anecdote:

I first started geocaching around when I was a minor and I was just a starry-eyed newbie who just really wanted to learn more about puzzles. I admit that I did ask too many stupid questions that are "obvious" in hindsight with more experience, and maybe they got frustrated with it. I understand that as mystery cache owners, they wouldnt want to spoonfeed players into solving their puzzles.

But still, any well-intentioned new player would rather be told directly, but gently, that the spirit of puzzle solving is to figure things out on their own, rather than having snide and passive aggressive comments that are subtly pointed at you at events, and ignoring you in group settings.

Imagine a bunch of 40-50 year old men beefing with a teen girl who was just really enthusiastic to learn and solve their puzzles.

It's miserable, and due to my own experience I just don't have the courage to speak to any of them anymore even though I'm an adult now. I feel that whatever I say, they'll take it in a bad way.

I know I can just enjoy the game myself but I really wanted a community that I can share and listen to experiences with that won't judge me for my mistakes.

To any veteran cachers/puzzlemakers here:

I beg you, be kind to your new cachers. Some things may seem extremely obvious to you (ie. unspoken rules and cache/puzzle etiquette) but to a new player who just got into the game with fresh eyes, it is NOT!! You may think it's not your responsibility to cater to new players, which while true, these new players really look up to you (especially kids), and it wouldn't hurt to set a positive example in the community.

Thanks for reading my rant.