u/TandooriBiryani

I am a 27 year old guy who likes this a girl who is 26 years old. She recently got out of marriage, and have known each other for few months and have feelings for each other. I have NEVER felt like this with any person EVER! I have never dated anyone cause of family, culture, and personal reasons but this is the first person I have ever met that I want date... she makes me want to be a better man, and she truly deeply makes me happy and calms my brain.

Unfortunately, she told me she is not ready for relationship and neither am I as I am working on some personal issues. Today, she asked me if I will be emotionally okay with the fact that in potential near future, she will be sleeping with other men and exploring kinks. It immediately irked me and hurt my feelings. Nothing intimate has happened between us because she said she is not ready to act on her feelings and I promised her that I would never take advantage of her feelings or carry away in mine resulting in me making a move on her and then having a whole "oh shit what does this mean" moment.

I really like her.... I am tortured every second I am away from her cause I think about her and how badly I want to be with her and just be all cutesy and couple-ey with her. When I am with her... I am tortured that we are not being all cozy or cutesy.... my skin feels like it's on fire and I want to have physical touch of any sorts with her to calm my pain.

She wants to sleep with others cause she is single and it's fun to be sexual and means absolutely nothing. I fully support this as I agree with her on this matter... until she came into my life! I cannot imagine or want her to be intimate with others and I told her that I like her and it would hurt me but I support her choice as she is not my woman and should do what her heart pleases.

Yet I know sit here with fuck ton of emotional turmoil about what will happen in future and who she will be doing what with and wrecking my brain on whether can I still be around her and be all okay if she is intimate with someone? Has anyone been in similar situation? Anyone got any advice?

TLDR: girl I like likes me back but wants to sleep with others as she is not ready for relationship, and it's hurting me. how do I ride out this wave?