u/Temporary-Escape6638

I'm thankful for the way you took me in.

I'm grateful for your leniency.

I'm envious of your patience.

I'm appreciative for the teaching moments.

When I had started I was a ball of nerves.

A few months in you all helped me through the roughest time of my life. I didn't talk about it, but you guys realized something was wrong. I messed up, made mistakes, acted terribly and yet you continued working with me.

I've learned more in the past year from you than I have in the entirety of the rest of my life. So many applicable skills that I will carry because you took the time to teach me.

Im greatful for all of you, you're what I would consider to be family at this point. You’re good people. That said, I'm just ready to move on with life.

I wish you all the best, our last day is coming very soon.

It's a terrifying thought that I can barely keep calm enough to write this. Luckily you'll never see this.

I love you more than I've let on. I care about you in a way that I never even thought possible; not because of some superficial charm but how open you are with me. I want the good, the bad and the ugly.

I want to be by your side when you awake from a nightmare. I want to be there when you're at your lowest points and highest peaks. I want to have every experience with you imaginable.

There was a reddit post I had once read, "would you date yourself and would you be happy?". I honestly had no idea how to respond to the question. At one point I may have soundly said no. Then by some freak accident I met you. We have more in common that I let on. It feels as though we're the same person at times and it's terrifying.

Obviously we have our differences in opinion; we're individual people living entirely different lives. Yet I never have to tell you what I'm thinking; you already react in the same ways I do without ever knowing. Since day one I've been terified to respond to you at times because it feels like you're reading from a script that has told you how I would respond myself.

I can't wait until we have more time together and I know you feel the same way. I've been diligently working towards that goal since the day we decided to tell each other how we feel.

I'm ecstatic, enthralled that I get the chance to feel this way with you. Loving and being loved by you is an experience I hope that I always get the pleasure of having. I would be happy doing nothing or anything with you, as long as it meant I was by your side.

I know it's only been a few months but I hope that you say yes when I ask. I really hope to start an entirely new chapter with experiences that neither of us has ever had, together.

We may not be each other's "first" but I'd like to make sure that we're each other's last.

Forever yours~T