how to manage realities
Hello everybody,
I'm going to start by giving you a little explanation of my situation. Last year I was suicidal and I went to the psychiatrist who diagnosed me with ADHD, hypersensitive due to it and HIP. I first tried ADHD medicines that were not helpful to me and someone try psilocybin and I went on one of the first ADHD/psilocybin retreat in the Netherlands since it's illegal in my country.
We had two trips during the retreat and in one of them a voice (that I think was my higher self) told me to open my third eye and to let go of the concept of concept. After the retreat I meditated, did moon rituals and micro-dosed for four months
During the new moon in march, I took my micro dose with the intention of finding my way in this life, and I asked myself what I could do if I used my full potential because I have loads of energy. This night is the night I think I had my awakening, the meditation really showed me an entire future of everything I would love achieve: making music and documentary about psychedelics and mental health, about nature, and continuing to try astrophotography, do sports and remind people they have free will. Also my dream is to have a farm with a studio of music where artists come do residences and watch the stars / widthen their consciousness.
It reminded me of my wildest dreams in life and the weirdest thing is that I also wondered in the meditation if I had a twin flame or a soulmate for this beautiful quest that is life and I narrowed down a precise men. I thought of alllllll the details I would want in someone, and even what name/hobbys/physique/nationality/past he would have/be. And guess what, I met this man a month after the trip lol.
Since then life has been weird because when I meditate, I sometimes can go in the past to relive certains things or feel like I can visualize a potential future if I follow my heart. Also since then every moment of my life feels like eternity, I don't know how to describe but I feel like march was years and years ago. Which is really positive because I take the time to experiment every second with a lot of depth. But it's weird because my friends don't understand to much and we still vibe but I feel like I need more alone time to recharge my battery and be a little light when I'm with the other humans.
Anyway my question for you guys is do you guys have experiment similar thing in your life? time slowiiiiiiiing down or having visions of potentials future? How do you deal with people from your life? do you talk about awakening or do you hide it? When one of your friend is all stressed not to absorb their energy? to manage the difference of depth between people?
not a lot of people know about this and I often get call a witch (I use my pendulum to calm me down when I'm over stimulated lmao). And since I am a fan of anthropology I was wondering what's up with you guys.
anyway I hope your day on earth is going great and that your energy is safe <3