u/TheBarbaryMacaque

Wanna get to the dlc but having trouble with Mohg, if anyone is able to put a summon sign down for me 🙏

For about 4 years now I've been having reoccurring dreams in which I am occupying a tower at sea, and I believe it's my self-conscious waking up and attempting to integrate.

Background:

I'm a Pisces Sun, Virgo Moon, and Capricorn Rising with a heavy Aquarius influence throughout the rest of the chart.

My relationship to dreaming has always been 100% reactive. I never realize I'm dreaming, everything makes sense as it happens, and I cannot control anything that happens.

That was until I started a meditating practice where you imagine yourself in a different location, one you like and would feel safe and comfortable in, I pictured myself in a tower alone in a vast ocean. It's helped me more than any other technique I've tried.

Then one night I have this dream where I'm at the base of such a tower and I'm actually aware of myself. I'm assuming this is what people experience when they lucid dream, I have never had one before.

Details:

- These dreams come very infrequently (I've had i think 6 of them total) and I haven't been able to trigger it. However when it happens I am always aware immediately of what’s going on.

- The tower itself is 3 stories tall, shaped like a castle corner tower, and is made up entirely of a pitch black stone. The tower is made of bricks of this stone but is sat upon a tiny piece of land made of the same rock including the sand by the water. It has an open archway to enter through (no door) with a bare first floor open room. Stairs hug the wall to the left and lead up to the second and third floors as well as the top, which is open air and has crenulations.

- The surrounding water is endless as far as I have explored. In my first visit I had no body and I was essentially a floating consciousness. I explored the tower first and then tried flying away from it but I only went so far as to just barely lose sight of the tower, then would go back.

This was when I learned there was no life, no fish in the sea or birds in the sky. I also learned I could control the weather or passing of time. I was watching the clouds but the sun was bright and I thought it'd be nice if it wasn't. The sun moved further behind the tower and the sky looked like it was evening. I played with it a bit more and sent it through a few cycles, one moment it was thunder-storming so I watched that for awhile.

Subsequent Visits:

- On every new visit something would change. First I manifested a body, mine irl, and could feel the normal sensations we do in reality. The black stone surface held heat like any normal rock does, outer wall was warm and inside it was cool. The ocean was salty and the wind was soothing.

Next some furniture appeared such as a bed, a few tables and chairs, some bookshelves though they remained empty. These were not made of the stone but regular materials you'd expect.

- Eventually however there was an incident. On maybe the fourth dream a rug was laid out on the first floor. It has some kind of pattern but its faded and hard to really make anything out, like gray-on-gray. But underneath it there was a door in the floor, and when opened it revealed a long ladder that reached down into darkness.

- I didn't descend immediately but the next visit I decided I had to. It was really long and when I reached the bottom I found myself at one end of a dark hallway. Up ahead I could see it turned right, a soft blue light painting the corridor so I could make out the space. When I turned the corner I found another hallway, but along the left wall there was a row of porthole-like windows that the blue light was coming through. Through them I could see the ocean floor and it was a massive landscape of large black stalagmites. Some had doorways at the base, some had what looked like window frames, none of them breached the water's surface. The portholes also had no physical barrier between me and the water yet it didn't spill into the hallway and I could touch the water being held there.

The Incident:

- Further down the hallway there was a short flight of stairs that led to a door, one of those classic heavy steel doors with the wheel crank in the center to open it. It had a window above the wheel that allowed you to look through.

- When I peered in I swept from right to left, it was a bare grey room with an identical door on the opposite wall, but I barely registered these details at first because in the lef half of the room stood a massive demonic looking gargoyle statue.

- The second I realized what I was looking at I was frozen in an all-consuming fear, it felt like I was falling and drowning at once and that feeling rapidly grew more intense. My vision swam and my ears pulsed and my body felt glued in place.

- Describing the look of this statue-creature is difficult. It was standing on all four limbs, it's right side facing me. It was the size of a moose but had the general shape of a dog or bear or wild cat. It looked malnourished or starved, it's skin was as grey as the room it was held in and h a d the texture of cracked stone. It had a forest of three foot spines coming off it's back and a long whip-like tail that ended in a clean point.

- It's face is the hardest and easiest part to look at. The head shape is long and oval/oblong. It's ears are sat neither atop or on the sides of it's head but somewhere between. It has four short horns protruding from the top of it's head and on its forehead. It's mouth and jaws are close to snout-like but are shorter than that and unnervingly sort of human, same with it's nose being mostly animal but a bit pointed like a human's. But it's eyes are the worst part, huge saucers sunk into a stoney pitted malformed face, pupils that nearly took up the entire eye, and it's gaze was fixed on me.

- I hadn't seen it move, it was already in that position when I saw it, and eventually I started to calm down from that initial terror. It was just as I was rationalizing it as just a scary looking statue that it flashed it's rows of needle teeth and pointed at the door. It was faster than I could react to and it slammed into the door between us. I fell on my back and ran for the ladder, I climbed it as fast as I could.

- Once I was back in the tower I ran out to the sand and collapsed. As I tried to collect myself I noticed everything had a tinge of green to it. The sky was entirely green and where the sun had been was now a tendrilly black-green sun with a single eye in the center, different from the kind the beast had, and it just stared down at me as that visit ended and I woke up.

I can share more later if this post is allowed and ya'll want to hear more. Nothing as intense has happened since but it has gotten close.

I would love to hear what kind of Piscean themes can be found in this, there's obvious ones but I want to hear what ya'll have to say about it.