u/The_Evil_Owl

A girl used me in the past and I was devastated by it and never thought I’d be like her. A couple months later I kinda dated my best friend’s sister for a while and I was really in love with her but I messed it up and I lost her and was really depressed about it. Her brother was angry at me for trying to get with his sister and I don’t have another chance with her so I ruined my friendship with him for nothing.

I’ve been talking to a new girl. She seems to really like me. We haven’t actually had sex yet but I think it might happen soon. The thing is I’ve really tried to like her back but I just can’t convince myself to. I’m pretty much over my friend’s sister but I do think I might still be in love with her. The new girl is really great though, if I hadn’t dated my friend’s sister, I think I would have really liked her. Now she just seems worthless compared to her.

I want to cut her off so I don’t end up using her, but I don’t want to hurt her feelings. I don’t want to talk to her anymore. I don’t want anything to do with her. I hate her. I only want my friend’s sister. She’s everything I’ve ever wanted in a woman. She’s perfect.

I don’t know what to do.

UPDATE: I dumped her

The letter to Julian, which was supposedly written by Bunny, was typed out. It is mentioned that Francis had a typewriter and later, Charles said that he had snuck into Francis’ house ‘a million times’ so he could have snuck in to write it, right? He also asked Richard for letter paper when he was in the hospital and it was at one point mentioned that he was good at falsifying documents. He was with Cloke in Bunny’s room, so he could have taken the paper wth the hotel’s heading from there. The letter supposedly also contained a bunch of homophobic stuff and Charles might be judgemental of homosexuals because of Francis, a homosexual, SA’ing him when he was drunk. At this point Charles clearly started hating Henry and it isn’t known when the letter was placed in the mailbox so it is entirely possible that Charles could have written it as revenge on Henry. Does this make sense?

I would like to hang a shelf, but my apartment contract forbids drilling in the wall. I will live here for about 6 years and I really need a shelf but there is no space to put it anywhere on the ground, so it needs to hang. After I move out, there must be no trace of it or I will be forced to pay more. Therefore I think any industrial adhesives are also off the table (unless someone could recommend me one that dissolves easily enough to not leave a trace). The weight of the stuff on the shelf would probably be at least 20 kg (40 lbs). Drilling and patching when I move out isn’t an option as the landlord checks the apartment every year.

Is there any way to accomplish this? I have tried to google it but found no sufficient methods.

All names are changed for privacy.
I’ll (18M) start by giving some context. I’m 18 now but I was 17 during the majority of this story. I’m in college in a city away from my hometown and my best friend Lawrence (18M), who is from the same town is in college in a different city. We don’t see each other often anymore but whenever one of us hosts a party we’re always both invited and we have a great time. Lawrence and all my other friends are a year older than I am because I skipped a year of school so basically everyone I know is older than me. We have 2 other friends, Charles (19M) and Brian (18M)

Before everything went down, I had a different best friend, a girl named Rose (18F). A month before we started college, Rose’s boyfriend of 2 years broke up with her. She got over him after like a week and then she asked me to be friends with benefits. I panicked and initially said yes because I didn’t want to lose her friendship and also I guess I wanted to lose my virginity, but I later told her I’d realised that I didn’t want to have sex unless we were in a relationship. We hadn’t done anything at that point. About a month later, the last Wednesday before college started, I went drinking with her at her apartment (we all have student apartments, it’s like a dorm but it’s not owned by the school) and when I was drunk (she had like 2 drinks at this point) she took off my pants and sucked me off. I didn’t resist because I was drunk. The next day I went back to her apartment to talk about it and she told me she did like me after all and we ended up having sex that evening. When we woke up on Friday we did it again. That same day, Lawrence asked to go drinking together and we went. I told all our friends that I met a girl and we were now dating and we had had sex and I told Lawrence the same thing, but that evening I ended up telling him that it was Rose accidentally because I was drunk. He was surprised but didn’t really have an opinion on it.

About a month later, we met a new guy who had made up a nickname for himself like a fucking loser and told us that everyone always called him that, which is complete and utter bullshit. The nickname he made up for himself was Zen (19M). He’s a performative male and I never liked him, and neither did Charles. Zen joked about his ex girlfriend who killed herself and all his jokes are always about sex and it’s just really exhausting. But Rose fell for his performative male personality, and so Brian (not in a gay way though, he just likes him as a friend). Rose cheated on me with Zen and told me over text.

about another month later, Lawrence had a party at his house for his birthday and he asked me to come early to have dinner with his family. There was his parents, his sister Evelyn (15F at this point) and Lawrence and me. When I sat down and said hi to her she said hey back and gave a nervous little giggle. I didn’t think much of it at the time, I just thought she was feeling a little awkward. Later that night, during the party, she joined us for a bit and really only talked to me.

I had a party at my house at New Years. I invited Lawrence and Evelyn to come over early to eat and Brian kind of invited himself, which was fine with me. Evelyn was really silent from the moment he arrived and left before anyone else came. She said she probably would anyway because she’s apparently a bit socially awkward.

Fast forward a couple months and there’s an event I want to go to in the city where I study, but I don’t want to go alone. Brian and Charles didn’t want to go, so I asked Lawrence who also refused because of the distance. At some point, Charles (19M at this point) took my phone and texted Evelyn as a joke. Later that day she replied that she didn’t want to come that night but she said she would like to come to the city some time. I didn’t really know what to answer so I just said I’d be open to that and we danced around the idea a little until she just sent a text saying “Ask.”, so I asked and she came. this is where the real story starts.

She came to the city and we had a pretty good time. I was quiet, I usually am the first time hanging out with someone. I wasn’t under the impression that it was a date at all at the time. Evelyn told me not to tell Lawrence about it, she told him about it the next day and he seemed fine with it. I also told him later (after getting permission from Evelyn) and he said it was ok and that “she’s 16 now so she can do what she wants”, so that was a huge relief.

That weekend (I was home) I got a call from another friend who is still in high school, named Walter (19M). He came and picked me up in his car to hang out and we just talked. He said his sister was surprised we were hanging out, because she’s friends with Evelyn and she told Walter about the “date”, which she apparently considered it be. I was surprised to hear this and honestly I still didn’t think it was. I guess I was in disbelief or whatever.

Anyway, I texted Evelyn the next week that I had a good time and would definitely be open to hanging out again and she gladly accepted. We went to see a movie (in our hometown, I go home on weekends) and we just talked the whole time. At some point there was a sad scene and she cried on my shoulder. At some point during the movie we also held hands. She asked me when my birthday was and I told her. She wrote it on her hand and later Lawrence texted a discord server (which I’m also in) about that and said “wtf do they even do together”, so I guess at that point he started getting more angry about it.

She texted me that night and asked when we’d see each other again next. We decided to go pooling 2 weeks later. The next day though, she said 2 weeks was a pretty long interval. I initially did that on purpose as to not piss off Lawrence too much but when she texted that I couldn’t think of a reason I didn’t want to see her. I really liked hanging out with her and I guess she liked hanging out with me too. That Wednesday she came to the city again and we had er together. We had a good time. That Saturday she texted me that she had some free time and we went to see another movie. During this one, she was scared and I put my arm around her and she liked it. At this point I really started to consider them dates (I wasn’t sure before).

So that was 2 more dates before the one we already planned. At one point she also said she’d invite me to their house but Lawrence was home so that wouldn’t have been a very good idea.

On the fifth date we went pooling and had a really good time and even went to see a movie afterward because we wanted to hang out longer. I had my arm around her again and it was great. At this point I really started to fall for her. She talked to Lawrence about us again and he told her some stuff about me. He said I was always seeing 10 girls at a time and she’s just another one of them. I don’t know if he genuinely believed this or if he was just lying to her to sabotage me, but it was all completely untrue. I only had eyes for her. I had to really convince her that it wasn’t true. He is her brother, after all, she should trust him.

Our sixth date was a week later. We had dinner and went pooling. Afterward we took a little walk through town. I took her to a moderately romantic spot and I thought it was the perfect setting to make it official. I wanted to ask. She said she “wanted to say it but was afraid” and asked me to “say it” first. I told her how I felt. She said she thought she might feel it too but wasn’t sure. She said she didn’t know what it felt like. She said she didn’t want to kiss yet but said she would want me to kiss her head.

The next day she texted me. It was over. Apparently I came across as if I were trying to pressure her into it. I really, really, really didn’t mean to. I was in love with her and I guess I wasn’t thinking right in a moment so fragile. I texted Lawrence and he said he didn’t want to talk to me. He also said he “didn’t agree with” how I handled the situation with Rose, basically saying he didn’t believe I was the victim. This really hurt me. I didn’t sleep for 2 nights. I was devastated. At some point Brian told me he wanted to make a new discord server that united our friend group with Lawrence’s new friends in the city where he studied. We made it together and Lawrence got mad at us. He ended up calling me and we reconciled, but he left all the discord servers.

Around Easter I had a party at my house. I invited Lawrence and told him Evelyn was welcome. too. He asked her but she didn’t want to. Lawrence came, we had a good time and I ended up going home with him to drop him off after the party because he drank too much. While we were on the way, he told me Evelyn didn’t come because she was scared of me now. This made me feel really bad. About a week later I texted her telling her that I never meant to be someone she had to be afraid of, and that I was sorry that I apparently was. She didn’t answer.

Another couple weeks later I das drinking with Brian and I texted a group chat asking if I should text her. Lawrence was in the group chat and got angry at me. I didn’t end up texting her but I did text one of the discord servers Lawrence isn’t in to vent about how I was really in love with her and I didn’t mean to be and I didn’t mean to upset Lawrence.

I invited Lawrence to another party after that as I thought we were chill again and also told him Evelyn was welcome. He got angry and told me he saw the texts I sent about Evelyn in the discord server. I told him I meant how I felt. He didn’t like that. He said he was tired of this and I said I was too. By now we’ve reconciled.

The problem is I’m still not over her. I’m trying really hard. I archived her on Whatsapp so I don’t see the chat anymore, I unfriended her on Instagram and Snapchat and I’ve been seeing some other girls, but none of them live up to her. Reading our old messages made me realise she considered it a date from the very first time and I was actually stupidly oblivious. I’ve never been in love before. I thought I had, but she made me realise I hadn’t. How I feel about her is so much different from Rose or all the other girls I’ve had crushes on. I’m trying really hard to get over her but I can’t. I can’t think of anything else than her. I can’t do anything without thinking of her. I want what’s best first her, but I can’t accept that that’s not me. I’ve never felt anything as strongly as I feel love for her. I don’t want anything else than to be with her. For her to love me back. I can’t imagine a scenario where she would date another guy and I’d accept it. I can’t get over her.

I don’t know what to do. I can’t talk to Lawrence about it and my other friends also just laugh it off or say I’ve got to get over her but I can’t. I’m trying really, really hard but I just can’t.