u/Then-Associate-327

Then cut it up and tossed it into nature. I wasn't even sure what the goal of it was, just something in my spirit that I needed to give to God.

This friend was someone I loved but was a terrible influence on my life and did lots of sketchy things. I dreamed not too long ago that she was very drunk (I've gotten sober) and told me to leave her alone, she didn't want me around and there was another person there I didn't recognize.

Please pray I get the closure I need.

I'm really struggling.

I have always felt drawn to magic. I have always felt drawn to nature and the power of it.

I've decided to become a Christian who practices magic. "Practicing magic" in the sense of, taking spiritual baths, adding herbs to my drinks for different intentions. Simple things like that.

I don't do any spells on other people. I look at these things I do as symbolic prayer. I feel closer to Jesus this way. Especially because I believe I have certain spiritual gifts, as others in my family do.

I've been so indoctrinated to the idea that witchcraft=satanic, that I'm having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that religion in and of itself doesn't really do it for me. But adding different practices is more fulfilling.

I just need someone who understands