Hey guys, I got this cheap generic Mp3 player and I tried downloading songs on it using Lucida but after a few minutes the songs on it just stop playing and the song titles turn to the "?" symbol and I have to turn it off and on again to get it to go back to normal. Wondering if this is just user error or if I should use a different download site/something else because idk what to do
Hi, I am a 18 - 3 year old girl. (Post might get removed if I put actual age) I have never dated anyone before until three days ago, when I confessed to my crush and friend that I really liked him. He asked me to be his girlfriend, I said yes without thinking. It sounds slightly selfish, but it was really nice to be validated in the sense that a boy would actually like me enough to date me. Now we're together, and he is so incredibly nice and perfect. I made it clear to him that I did not want to do anything before marriage, and he agreed and said that his ex always pushed him into doing that kind of stuff when he didn't want to.
I am a Muslim, so in my religion we are not allowed to date people, especially non-muslims. I still don't even know what his religion is, but I'm pretty sure he's agnostic/atheist. I am not a very good Muslim, I can't read Arabic, I don't wear hijab, I listen to music, and I don't pray much. I'm trying to work on it but it's difficult. It may not sound like it but my religion is very important to me, and I've been feeling a huge amount of religious guilt because of this relationship.
Plus, I have only known this boy for less than a month, and now I feel like I've rushed into things but I feel too ashamed to let him down by breaking up. He's been through a lot it seems, and he's really respectful of my boundaries, he has innocent interests and he's really cute. Today we were watching a movie, holding hands and he put his arm around me and he kept asking if I was comfortable or not. I wasn't. I don't know why. I feel like there's something wrong with me because I should be enjoying this, but I just felt really uncomfortable. He wasn't even doing anything far!
But I just feel tense around him because I realised that I don't really know what to talk to him about. We have similar interests of course, but we're both quite socially anxious and conversation doesn't come too easily. I love him and he loves me, but I feel like I'm doing the wrong thing. And I don't want to marry a non Muslim (or a typical Muslim guy, for reasons of my own), but I also don't want to ask him to convert for me because it just feels so selfish. I don't know what's wrong with me but I think I lost feelings. I'm not sure if I'm just being dramatic or what, because this is my first relationship and I don't know what to do. Should I wait it out and see if things get easier, or should I just end it now to reduce the amount of heartbreak? If he is my soulmate, then why does the relationship make my heart feel so heavy? And we're so young too, what if I meet a guy that's more for me in the future? What if I realise I want to focus on my career? I really like being single, I realise. It feels so free, it sort of irritates me knowing I have a boyfriend.
I have a horrible feeling that it's not going to end well, and it scares me. I know the relationship is haram, but I don't want to ask him to convert to make it less haram. I wish I'd never confessed because I really want to keep him as a friend even if we're not dating, but I feel like if I break up with him, things will be really awkward between us an the small friend group we're in. Please let me know what I should do because I think I love him and I don't want to break his heart.