u/Then_Individual7384 — reddlx

Give a general description of yourself. How old are you?
I am almost 19 years old and almost done with highschool. I live in Europe as an only child. I ave two guinea pigs, I love them so much.
What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not? If you are not working, what kind of job do you want to do or what are you studying?
I am a highschool student, after graduation I am taking a gap year. I plan on working at a local newspaper and then visiting France for 3 months in order to learn french properly. I don't know what I want to study after my gap year, I think it's going to be psychology. I want to study it, because I like reading about psychology related topics, but I fear I only want to study it because I am afraid of every other field.
Describe your childhood/upbringing. Did it have any kind of ideological or structured influence? How did you respond to it? Did you have any significant negative experiences that may have affected how you think or behave?
I would describe myself as the typical ''well-behaved child'' that everybody loved. I couldn't argue, I just couldn't defend myself. I was a ray of sunshine though, sometimes a bit too trusting with people. I loved going on stage, like playing theatre. My peers and family described me as talkative, empathetic and energetic. In my opinion my younger self was the real me.
Do you have any mental or physical health issues that might affect how think or choose to live? Provide a brief description.
No, I don't but I think I have a tendency to get anxious easily. There are just some scenarios that are deeply unsettling for me. E.g changing environment, I feel really bad the first few weeks, but then I start to love it.
If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
Th at depends.... honestly I think I would not enjoy it, I would want to go sidequesting with some people randomly at 4AM or something. That would be super fun.
What is your relation with movement and your surroundings? For instance do you prefer a sport or outdoors event? If an outdoors event what is it? And why? If not what type of activities do you tend to engage?
I see myself as a person with lower energy levels, but I have endurance at least I think I do. I am just not the person to fall in love with sports, I do them because it makes me feel good and healthy.
How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I have many ideas, but when I want to execute them I get bored or I just do something and after a while it becomes boring or unimportant.
Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I don't like being needed 24/7 by others, so it depends. I am terrified of stress and burn-out, but I could see myself leading a club etc. , I like the title somehow and the power that I have. By power I mean independence.
Do you prefer hands on activities or working with your hands in some form? Describe your activities.
I love scrap-booking, but I hate everything technical or mechanical. I don't care about cars or working with heavy machinery.
What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
I feel like I ma stuck in the past. I tray to find my answers there. E.g Aspire to me my childhood-self or sometimes random scenarios pop up that made me mad in the past, but I try to stay present, since reality has much to offer.
How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
What's important to you and why?
What are your aspirations?
To live life to the fullest, to have albums full of photos and stories to tell. That's why I struggle to find a career path. I don't want to be stuck in an office.
What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
Ironically I fear living a life in fear and making ''safe'' decisions because my fear dictates it. I fear being unhappy, I fear being ill and living a miserable life. That's why I over-analyze myself, to make sure everything's okay with me (like physically, mentally etc.). Being surrounded by the wrong people and not having the courage to stand up for myself. My biggest fear: Chronic stress and burn-out.
How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I am easily affected by music. I tend to have scenarios when I listen to specific songs. Most of the time it's about me achieving special things or being famous (ups), or in a fantasy world even.
Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
My feelings, I sometimes don't know how to interpret them. Probably start crying, I dont know.
How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
I often notice later on how much certain things have affected me. I deny feelings sometimes e.g. when catching feelings for someone.
Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Not on purpose, sometimes I am just not interested in correcting people or simply not listening as attentively, so I just nod or say yes.
Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why would you?
I am a rule follower, simply because I don't want to get in unecessary trouble. But authority should be challenged, authority means nothing actually unless they show their qualities.
What is the ideal life, in your opinion?
An adventurous life, full of joy, where the sun is shining and I try different things and explore it. I would love to live by the ''the world is my playground''-approach, I am positive that I will get there some day.

Sorry, for the long text, but I think that's about it.
Enjoy reading and thank you in advance 😉