I have fallen off and need help
I have fallen off and need help
So, have fell off self improvement hard, possibly worst than we I started. I started 3 years ago , I was 14 , just an average dude. Addicted to games but not terrible at other things. In the course of 2 years, until I was 16, I got deep into calisthenics and fighting. Perfect diet, sleep, everything on point. And I could feel like I had reached the 20% of men. I had gotten respect and admiration. But then, I had my first real fight. Opponent was a 4x national champion, has gone semi-pro by now.and it was crazy because I stood my ground and was complimented by his coach.i lost due to technical knock out. That was 1and a half year ago, since then I have fallen off hardddd. I got addicted to social media, fucked up my diet, sleep, started smoking, switched to snus, had so much snus (Pablo 30 and Cuba 50 for those who know) my gums started bleeding. And got into drinking and weed. The worst is, I feel my mindset completely switched. Back then I was thinking way more aggressively, with way more confidence and self belief. Now, I feel like a pussy, on my last fight, I lost to a weaker opponent because I was so scared second round I gave up and just stood there. So, how can I get back? I feel lost and stuck. Please help me