How do you go past the fear?
The farthest I went is probably sub breakthrough. I took like 3 hits and at the end I could have taken one more hit but it was too scary— I seem to stop right before the last.
I had my eyes open, and I became a game character. Like I was actually a game character. I had access to abilities that I was trying to use but didn’t know how. I even saw a sort of door in front of me, and there was a “target” lock box of sorts around it, saying thats where I am aiming or something. As if thats the way out of the ‘game.’ One more hit might’ve launched me towards it. That state seemed to last for like 1-2 minutes then I came back to reality (out of being a game character), still tripping of course.
All in all, I’m seeing there isn’t anything to fear from DMT. That, I may not be the body, but awareness. The dreamer dreaming this dream. So, why would the dreamer fear himself? I realized I need to stop trying to resist this fear, accept it, and enjoy it. Only thing, my trust in myself, the unconscious, universe needs to be stronger than my fear — knowing that no matter what, I’ll be fine. Just like when you go on a slide or rollercoaster, you’re scared, but you know you’ll be safe. This is exactly the same.
I’m currently on vacation so I can’t put the knowledge I’ve gained into practice yet. It’s amazing how beautiful and scary it is. How do you get over the fear, especially with taking multiple hits on a cart?