u/Think_Present_9118

Ok so me and this guy let’s call him Ethan. We met at school we were really close friends. We met in English Literature class anyway he eventually dropped out of it because he hated it. But anyway not the point!

He was really nice to me actually and encouraged me to be more confident. We were close and I told him personal things about my family issues more than others, I went to his house, also I went to his house for parties, we did hold hands, we would hug goodbye! Anyway so everyone at school kept saying we were dating, even my friends teased me about it, his friends teased him about it CONSTANTLY though especially this one guy he brought it up constantly. Even brought up marriage 🤣.

Anyway at one of his parties there was this guy who was Ethan’s friend and I thought he was cute so we flirted and he asked for my number. Then Ethan blurted out loudly “DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE HIM?!” I didn’t respond I felt embarrassed. Then later on I did kiss the guy, it was nice. Then Ethan went around to everyone at the party saying that I was pressured! But I wasn’t even everyone else said I wasn’t and asked me if I felt that way and I didn’t. Why did he do all that anyway?!

So then near the end of the party everyone had left and it was just Ethan and me. I asked who his crush was? At first he wouldn’t tell me then he did. He said “you!” I was so stunned. I had no idea he felt that way, but I have been told I am dense when it’s telling if someone likes me. Idk why, because I can always tell when others like someone else. I can just never tell when it’s actually me 😭💔. Anyway I just said “oh, I’m sorry. It’s just I’m confused right now. Idk what I want.” So I guess I didn’t reject him, I was actually just honest. Because I have no clue. I’m not exactly sure if I like him, I feel safe with him. Also when we first met I found him attractive. It’s just we have become such close friends and I don’t want to ruin that! So I feel like I might like him. But I just do feel so confused I have been going through a lot recently.

Anyway then he said there was a noise outside (there wasn’t). So we both ran out, and there wasn’t nothing. He then said “just so you know. You didn’t break my heart or anything.” Why say that?! Does he really not care as much as he said?! Anyway I need advice HELP ME! 😭💔

What if I never have a boyfriend? 🥺

I’m still worried though! I’m 16 years old. I live in a rural town in Australia and I don’t feel like I fit in. Most people here met the person they married when they were 15 and most of the men become tradeys while the women mainly become nurses or hairdressers. I know it sounds like I’m generalising but I’m really not in my class there were 20 people right? 11 boys, 10 wanted to become tradeys, one wanted to be a doctor (rare but he was German and he had traveled a bit more). There were 9 girls not including myself! 5 wanted to become hairdressers, 2 wanted to be nurses, and then 2 wanted to be teachers. I’m not saying it’s wrong I just don’t feel like I fit in.

Also because most never want to live in cities or travel and that has always been my dream! I want to travel all the way through Asia, Africa, South America, United States, Canada, Europe! So basically everywhere 😂! But only some countries in between.

I want to be a writer and a photographer! I want to go to university in London England because I have a British citizenship. Anyway so obviously my dreams are different to the majority of people here! But it’s just lots of people have started dating here and I haven’t so I’m just worried what if I never get married or loved? I would also like to go to Barcelona Spain or Paris France for masters. Because my French is good and I’m getting better at Spanish.

I just feel out of place here because I also did an exchange in Cyprus. I did love it but it wasn’t 6 months and I went to an international school filled with Greeks, Cypriots, Russians, Ukrainians, Israelis, Arabs and Italians! So it was really cool but no one I know here has ever even been overseas so I feel out of place. Also again what if I never get a boyfriend?