Taking care of my wife has made me empty
I’m sorry. It sounds horrible, but I had to say it out loud. Or at least see it typed out. I’m not that old, but I feel like a 90 year old man emotionally.
She is such a good woman. Holy shit she’s good. She didn’t deserve this! She deserved better than me even before this happened. She’s an angel of a human. My main job is to protect her dignity and be her cheerleader, but it’s breaking me.
I’m tired of smiling and walking her into these doctors appointments and these old ladies tell her how lucky she is to have me. No she’s not. I’m miserable inside and she knows it, but she knows I won’t let anything bad happen. I’m fucking terrible. I dream every day of love and kissing, walking with someone I love. She deserves so much better.
Sorry. I just had to let it out. Thanks and God bless