Can i meet Michael Jackson after i die?
Ever since watching that damn movie, ive gone down the rabbit hole of Michael Jackson's death, life, traumas, hate he got, songs, personality, funny videos, basically my whole life now revolves around him.
All i do is absorb his content and cry. I've already had 3 crying breakdowns while listening to his music this week, 1 lasting one whole hour.
It's not even that i have too much time, quite the opposite. I have final exams and can't even focus on my studies. The most important 2 weeks of my life regarding to school. I. Can't. Focus.
It's come to the point im becoming depressed, thinking of stoping to eat, wishing to die so i can finally meet him.
I sound crazy, but im a deep empath and really good at reading people and he is such a great person, the best I've ever seen. Everything about him is love, i resonate with him and see myself in him. The way he acts, feels, thinks, it's like watching a better version of myself.
I've never been so desperate about someone. I feel like my life is not compete without him. I need him. I need to be there for him. I want to spend time with him, share our feelings etc..
Researching for hours daily has opened me to so much information about what he went through, how ignorant people treated him, accused him of things he could never do, nobody understood him. I do. Because i feel the same as he does. Am i a child molester too? I wont go into depths, but overall i desperately want to go back in childhood because i barely had it, i do children's things, but i am not a pedophile. He knew things others didnt, he wanted to warn us, but they killed him. He knew children were important for our society.
Is it possible i meet him in afterlife? Can we meet celebrities?