u/ThrowRA_72lo

As much as i tried to be an understanding adult for hell she is going through, i'm tired of being an emotional punchbag, i'm tired of lighting myself on fire just to keep her warm.

She is a very soft, good fellow human being, but during these moments, i can't stand being called asshole, pussy, bitch all of a sudden, idon't think for how long will i be able to endure this chaos of dramas and being treated like a dog, i'm a human being also.

Don't get me wrong, i have respect for people enduring stuff like this every month, and i do really, i love her but i cannot, sometimes she just cannot stop insulting me about how i'm not a man, even though i begged her to ytop, i am really close to js say fuck you and get the fuck out of my life, even though i am not that impulsive.

She really means a lot and is mean a lot to me during these moments, but as much as she is, i'm also emotionally dead because of things like these. And this is just tip of the iceberg and i really needed to vent.

My girlfriend and i are dating for around 1 year. In the honeymoon phase, everything was alright, we had good convos, going on together until she started to show signs of trust issues and anxiety attacks,

I understood it, i've given her advices when she asked for them, i've listened, and we both noticed, and i know for well her mood depends a lot based on my mood, and the weird thing is thar she feels some kind of 'resentment' to me when i'm busy and we don't text that much.

She regularly checks my followers, profiles, if there is another girl, also from time to time when i'm not replying that much (when i'm really busy, and she knows why), i get texts like "say hi to her" "i hope you 2 have fun", which can happen often.

Couple of days ago, there was an open profile on IG from a friend of mine, and she checked my followers, and his followers to compare if any of my friends are following him, because she suspected maybe it's a fake profile, and asked me to remove it because she feels uncomfortable, which i did, and we had a little argument over there for which she said "your job is to make me comfortable"

On thw other side, she is really a soft person, i like her, but thar weird obsession that occurs quite often hurts me, especially when we go out, she is not in the mood sometimes, and she constantly asks me about another girl (doesn't exist), and she laughs when i calmly deny those allegations, she says youre a liar, whats her name etc.. and i don't know, it's a beginning of an adulthood, and i have so many crossroads, we talked and adressed thesenproblems but it seems like if there is even a little trigger it happens all over.

When i'm not there, she can have panic attacks, feel a lot bad, wants me to be there, doesn't want me to be there sometimes, she doesn't believe in therapists and the way they treat people help at all.