I’m ready to crash out. I absolutely hate my boyfriend of almost ten years.
Everything is an argument. If it isn’t, it’s a complaint, and eye roll, a huffy breath, or an opportunity to try and make me feel like an idiot. Every single word has to be a fight. I can say “good morning” and he basically tells me to fuck off. I can say I don’t like light mayo, I’d rather have regular mayo, and he tried to argue that it’s the same thing, even though he doesn’t eat mayo. I ask him to change a diaper or get a bottle, and he rolls his eyes at me and huffs like I’m asking him to come up with a thousand dollars.
He refuses to work overtime, but has a champagne taste in a crappy beer budget. Bills don’t get paid on time because he wants stuff and spends money before we have it. I have to be a SAHM because there are no daycare or work from home options in my area. We have one vehicle (his) because he’s “going to look at my car and see what’s wrong with it” for the last year and hasn’t. He can’t stand parenting for more than five minutes. He looses his shit when our toddler gets cranky. He refuses to go anywhere on his days off even though that’s the only time I can get out of the house.
Today alone, he criticized how much dish soap I used to wash dishes, yelled at me for throwing out a plastic sippy cup that was coated in mold that I found in his truck, told me I wasn’t allowed to decide to have an opinion on what he said, because he was wrong. Screamed at me for running over the garden hose that he supposedly moved, even though he never did, accused me of arguing with him when I was agreeing with him, went down a random rural road when I asked if we could look for a yard sale, just to tell me there wasn’t any yard sales and I was wasting his time, after I looked up the yard sale and told him the address.
He makes me life absolute hell. I’m not sticking around. I’ve been asking my mom for help, and she’s going to help me get out of here as soon as we can. I’m taking the baby, our pets, and running. I can’t do this anymore. He’s a monster.