u/TimelyOffice6267

Hey everyone,

I'm in a phase of seriously questioning my beliefs and trying to understand different worldviews as honestly as I can. I grew up Muslim, but lately I've found myself somewhere around the agnostic/questioning side of things. I'm not looking for an argument or an echo chamber .I just want to learn.

I've already got The God Delusion and Sapiens on my reading list, and I'm interested in topics like:

• Atheism & agnosticism
• Philosophy of religion
• Arguments for and against God's existence
• Evolution & human origins
• Comparative religion
• Skepticism, critical thinking, and rationalism
• History of religions

I'd really appreciate recommendations for books that are thoughtful, well-researched, and intellectually honest even if they disagree with each other. I'm happy to read both theistic and non-theistic perspectives.

Also, if anyone here enjoys discussing these topics respectfully or has gone through a similar journey, I'd love to connect and make some new friends.

Thanks in advance!

I've been a skeptic for the past couple of months.

The biggest things that started creating doubts in my mind about Islam were the slave system, historical problems that many scholars seem to hide about the Sahaba and some of the dark things they did, and the fact that they literally fought each other.

Then there's the whole Sunni vs. Shia thing. Both sides have historical proofs and doctrinal arguments. I honestly can't find a final answer.

Even within Sunni Islam you've got Ash'ari, Maturidi, Athari, Barelvi, Deobandi... and some of them literally make takfir of each other.

TBBH, almost everyone has their own proofs and justifications for what they believe, so after a while it just starts feeling like... there's no final answer. Just copeeee.

Then there are things like Muhammad's relationship with slaves (like /Jauniya, etc.), child marriage, and a lot of other issues.

So yeah... agnosticism, or maybe even deism, has honestly started making much more sense to me.

But here's where I'm stuck.

I'm a very intellectual questioner (no cap). I take religion, geopolitics, and the search for truth very seriously, even when it's uncomfortable.

And this is the weird part...

Islam actually made a LOT of sense to me when it came to these things.

I used to be fully Islamist. I genuinely believed secularism, feminism, liberalism, democracy, communism, etc. were forms of Jewish propaganda, kufr, and harmful ideologies.

Some people will probably say, "Bro, those are just conspiracy theories. Move on."

But that's exactly where I get confused.

Whether people agree or not, Zionists seem connected to a lot of powerful institutions and events—from pornography to discussions around the Palestine genocide. Then people talk about the Illuminati, Satanism, symbolism in the music industry, Rockefeller, etc.

You could even mention communism, and then people immediately bring up Karl Marx, the Bolsheviks, and alleged Zionist connections. 😭

So from my perspective back then, I had a very clear worldview:

These were all fitnah, and the solution was Khilafah and Shariah.

And honestly... some Shariah rulings still make a lot of sense to me. For example, riba (interest). I still think interest causes huge problems in society.

So here's my real question.

If you're an atheist, agnostic, or deist...

How do you actually see the world?

What's your worldview?

What's the solution?

How do you view things like the Palestine genocide? America's role in global politics? If there's no religion, what framework do you use to decide what's right and wrong?

I'm not here to debate or troll anyone. I'm genuinely trying to understand because right now I feel completely lost.

I'd really appreciate honest answers.

I've been a skeptic for the past couple of months.

The biggest things that started creating doubts in my mind about Islam were the slave system, historical problems that many scholars seem to hide about the Sahaba and some of the dark things they did, and the fact that they literally fought each other.

Then there's the whole Sunni vs. Shia thing. Both sides have historical proofs and doctrinal arguments. I honestly can't find a final answer.

Even within Sunni Islam you've got Ash'ari, Maturidi, Athari, Barelvi, Deobandi... and some of them literally make takfir of each other.

TBBH, almost everyone has their own proofs and justifications for what they believe, so after a while it just starts feeling like... there's no final answer. Just copeeee.

Then there are things like Muhammad's relationship with slaves (like /Jauniya, etc.), child marriage, and a lot of other issues.

So yeah... agnosticism, or maybe even deism, has honestly started making much more sense to me.

But here's where I'm stuck.

I'm a very intellectual questioner (no cap). I take religion, geopolitics, and the search for truth very seriously, even when it's uncomfortable.

And this is the weird part...

Islam actually made a LOT of sense to me when it came to these things.

I used to be fully Islamist. I genuinely believed secularism, feminism, liberalism, democracy, communism, etc. were forms of Jewish propaganda, kufr, and harmful ideologies.

Some people will probably say, "Bro, those are just conspiracy theories. Move on."

But that's exactly where I get confused.

Whether people agree or not, Zionists seem connected to a lot of powerful institutions and events—from pornography to discussions around the Palestine genocide. Then people talk about the Illuminati, Satanism, symbolism in the music industry, Rockefeller, etc.

You could even mention communism, and then people immediately bring up Karl Marx, the Bolsheviks, and alleged Zionist connections. 😭

So from my perspective back then, I had a very clear worldview:

These were all fitnah, and the solution was Khilafah and Shariah.

And honestly... some Shariah rulings still make a lot of sense to me. For example, riba (interest). I still think interest causes huge problems in society.

So here's my real question.

If you're an atheist, agnostic, or deist...

How do you actually see the world?

What's your worldview?

What's the solution?

How do you view things like the Palestine genocide? America's role in global politics? If there's no religion, what framework do you use to decide what's right and wrong?

I'm not here to debate or troll anyone. I'm genuinely trying to understand because right now I feel completely lost.

I'd really appreciate honest answers.