I want my life back. $100, 1500 mg a day addiction
Hello everyone I would like to vent and share my story and see if maybe anyone could help me. Before I started taking 7oh I had my life together for the most part. I’m 21 years old, i was taking kratom daily but that didn’t ruin me financially and in every-way like this did. I’ve tried to quit several times I tell myself everyday this is it this is the last time but as soon as the withdrawal hits I can’t do it. Idk how to explain it but I literally can’t handle the withdrawal, the second I even start to feel it I immediately go into panic mode and can’t do anything. I have a full time job and relationships and going through withdrawal is not doable I just can’t do it. I’ve been spending $100 every single day for almost a whole year and taking about 1500 mg a day. I’ve taken out multiple loans and gotten multiple credit cards I have completely failed to pay back any of them and I am now being sued by debt collectors and so in debt I literally feel like my life is over. I’ve tried going on suboxone but I go into withdrawal so hard even with the suboxone I just can’t do it. I’ve been trying recently to switch to the MIT Therapy extract shots and that also is not really working. I just want my life back I don’t know what to do. I can’t tell my family or my girlfriend because it would ruin everything. My relationship is going so amazing but this is the one thing holding me back. I’ve been thinking about maybe switching to the mit therapy shots and taking a small amount of the 7oh pills and possibly tapering that way but I literally don’t know what to do. I feel like my life is ruined and irreparable.