There are no kids my size or skill level at my gym
Combat sport aside boxing is a niche sport in the country I live in much less bjj and because of it theres not much kids my size or skill level. The highest ranked kid is a 1st degree grey and black belt but he's half my height and 1/3 of my weight the next is a girl who is half my weight and 2/3 my height and I wont lie I'm a big person but when I see gyms in America(where I was born)I see kids they are yellow, orange and green who are my size and I wish that I could roll with them or just even train with someone on that caliber. I feel like a kid thats grounded whilst he watches his friends play outside. I have also done some adult classes and the people that are my size are relatively easy. I just want to see where my skill level is. I don't know what to do I'm thinking of stop training with kids all together cause I don't feel like I'm getting anything out of it.
NB: I am a grey and white 1 stripe