30 ovarian failure
I haven’t talked about this to pretty much anyone. It’s always on my mind and I found this group and thought maybe someone here could understand.
Let me start from the very beginning. I have always had irregular periods. I have had huge ovarian cysts and horrible periods since I was 12. They always told me I would never be able to conceive. Fast forward to 2015, I end up pregnant. I had my first in 2016, and besides pre-eclampsia, I had a very healthy pregnancy. Delivery was another story. Fast forward to 2018, I get pregnant again, and besides cholestasis, I had another healthy pregnancy and delivery. I was over weight during all of this and after the birth of my second, my periods basically stopped all together.
I went about two years without a period. None of my doctors seems concerned or worried. I would go a few months without a period, and then get a really heavy, horrible period every once in a while. Fast forward, I get bariatric surgery in September 2024. After my surgery I get a period in October, November, and December. All normal, on the same day each month. I think the surgery fixed whatever was wrong. January, I’m extra tired, my boobs are sore and I start wondering if I’m pregnant. No period comes in January so I take a test, or a few. They say I am pregnant. I call my doctor schedule and appointment and now I’m waiting. As I’m waiting, I take more test because I can’t believe it. Then, I start getting negatives. The once dark line is now lighter as the days go on. And by the time my appointment comes, the doctor tells me I’m not pregnant and send me for blood work. Blood works confirms I’m not pregnant. So I ask, why I would have gotten all the positives and they basically tell me, “I don’t know “.
Since I thought I was, the idea of having another sparked a want in me and my husband. So we start trying. My period doesn’t come in February. Doesn’t come in March, April, or May. I got back to the doctor to see if something is going on. They run tests do some blood work and come tell me, I am in ovarian failure. My body is not producing any estrogen or progesterone. They put me on birth control to give me some estrogen. I start having heavy and painful periods. Plus my mood is so low, my husband is worried about me. I go back to the doctor in February of this year, he says stop the birth control let’s try the patches and pills. Also, you probably won’t ever be able to get pregnant because of the ovarian failure. So here I am now in July wishing on every shooting star and praying that maybe, just maybe I can conceive. And trying to be happy for everyone that can have babies around me.
Sorry for the long post. I just had to get it off my chest.