u/Tokyo-Weeaboo

Location: NC, USA. Age: 27 Gender: Male

I'm stuck between Roman Catholic and Pure Land Buddhist but I really don't know which one I want to worship and be part of. Truth is, I can be completely fine being nothing but I honestly just want to be part of something greater than myself. I'm tired of doing nothing also and it's getting boring.

My whole family is Roman Catholic (except my sister who is Buddhist) so going to a belief system that is different from the one that I'm familiar with might be odd but I still want to explore and look around.

Buddhism is free flowing with little to no rules which I like but Catholicism is ridgid with rules and structure and I like that a lot also. I tend to switch between these 2 for these reasons.

To make things even more complicated, I have borderline personality disorder so I change constantly and I really do hate that. Everything can be fascinating but also nothing can be at the same time. I just really don't know what to do.

How do I trust my gut when I don't have that sort of feeling for myself? What metrics do I use to narrow down a choice? I have Shinto things in my bedroom, Buddhist things and I also have Catholic things and also Witchcraft things because I tend to switch a lot. I am just ever so confused and I don't know what to do. I've been switching for many years now and I have recently been diagnosed with BPD. Is there any hope for me or will it calm down eventually? This switching business is driving me crazy. I just want to pick something and be fine with it and not switch anymore. But so far, I will just keep switching.

Is there any help for me or no? I think I trust Catholicism the most but how do I even know? I obviously can't trust my belief system because I switch so much. There has to be answers to questions that I have not asked yet.

I guess I'll ask you all: what are some questions you want answered if you go to a religious belief system? Like, what would you hope to get answered if you become religious? I really need help with this. I just want to be settled in a belief system and not get any hate for it which casts doubt on me (which happens a lot). I just want to be happy in what I do.

Advice? Help maybe? Thank you.

Hopefully this is not a dumb question but is there a genre out there or at least a band or 2 that captures what J-Pop or K-Pop or the like sounds like? The only thing that sounds somewhat like it are boy bands but that's not really it. Could anyone help? Thank you.

Hello. I'm still new to Reddit but I'm looking for an anime that is happy and that makes you smile but that is also wholesome. I have watched A Silent Voice, Kiki, and Oshi No Ko so I don't really have very much anime watching experience except for some anime movies from my childhood which are Ghibli films. I want something that reminds me of Kiki or Spirited Away. I just loved those movies so much! I love being transported into a world that is unlike anything else and just being taken away by it. Does anyone have any more movies like that or some animes? Thank you

It seems like whenever something makes sense to me, the next day will roll around and then I'm back to square one again trying to figure out my life again. I honestly hate feeling like this so much. I wish I was stable and that I stuck to something. Right now I'm on an anime kick and this has been helping by distracting me but I know that as soon as I quit watching it that I will just get bored with it and not watch anime ever again. I can go years without doing something and then just randomly pick it up again like it's an average Tuesday and do that for a while until I get bored with that too. I don't know what I am going to do. I take bipolar medicine (vraylar) but I don't think it's working because I still do these mental changes and become a different person every day. I wish I was stable and didn't change so much. I don't have a stable sense of self.

What do I do? I am at a loss. I talk to a therapist but I have such bad ADHD that my brain will take the conversation anywhere. I don't even know how to begin how to talk about this or what to bring up. I just change at the snap of a finger or if I have a thought or idea that is strong enough to change me. Please help and give advice, I really just want to be normal. I have ADHD, bipolar disorder, CPTSD and possible autism too. I feel like I cannot be normal.