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as the title says! looking for fics with bottom harry/top draco, but i don’t mind switching. can be super plotty or just straight up porn lol. i specifically like when harry is somewhat confident, but really anything works. i’ve been reading drarry for years and i feel like ive picked through the archive pretty thoroughly

some of my favs of all time are another mask behind you by lettered (goated), enemies with benefits by anon, S+ by TobiasAfterDark444, Half Sick of Shadows by StarQuesting, and This is Normal by CopperCatbird.

likes: powerful harry, lots of angst, kink, bar/clubbing scenes, jealousy, sub harry
dislikes: blushing virgin harry, they’re friendly right away (i can get down with a fast sexual burn but i need slow burn relationship wise lol)

never thought i’d be posting on a reddit forum, but here goes. i’m a 20 year old woman and i feel directionless. i’ve always struggled with mental health issues and it’s pretty much derailed my life in the last few years. slash i let it derail my life. i’ve been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, and inattentive adhd. i’ve been on medications for all 3 for years.
i started slipping in highschool. i’ve always been smart but i just couldn’t consistently do homework. i’d get by without really ever doing homework by acing tests; id have all zeros in the homework category of the gradebook but high As on tests and it’d balance out to a solid B. go figure, eventually i couldn’t keep up. my attendance became spotty at best junior and senior year. i started actually failing classes. i think the best representation of my school/motivation/intelligence situation is my standardizing testing scores vs class grades— hardly attended ap psych, scored a 5 on the exam. actually failed ap lang and comp, got a 4 on the exam. never read of a lick of the ap us history textbook, never really did homework outside of class, got a 4 on the exam. scored 35 for both reading and english on the act.
i think it all really started to go downhill when i didn’t turn in any college applications. not one. the thought of college stressed me out so badly that i avoided thinking about it, and before i knew it, submission deadlines had passed.
my first year after high school i went to community college. i did actually enjoy it, but i had the same issue with not doing homework. i started off fall semester strong but ended up nosediving so badly that i failed all 4 of the classes i was taking. i tried again second semester, retook 3 of the same classes. started off pretty strong, and then once again started to slip. scraped by with passing grades.
looooong story short, i was dumped by my bf of 2 years in the most sudden and literally traumatizing way the summer after my first year of community college. i just kind of existed for 6 months after, floating through life. i didn’t take any classes fall semester, and then suddenly it was spring and i hadn’t signed up for classes that semester either. and then suddenly it was summer, and now suddenly it’s fall and i didn’t sign up for classes. in 2 days it’ll be 1 year since he broke up with me, and i can’t help but feel just sick about what ive done with my life. or haven’t done, rather.
it’s worth mentioning that i’ve been working at a coffee shop since the summer after my senior year of high school and im actually great at that. i have a shift lead position and im objectively one of the most crucial employees on staff. im the person people go to with questions or concerns. i dont know why im able to go to work but i cant create stability in any other area of my life.
above all else, i feel so much shame and embarrassment for my situation. i know its all my doing.
i guess im looking for advice, but i feel like ive already heard everything. i’ve heard all the things people say to motivate people, and they do nothing for me. it’s like i have no intrinsic motivations, and i dont know how to change that. any response is appreciated. i dont know where to start with getting my life back together. thanks for reading.