Urges have been coming back when good things happen.
I have been doing extremely well mentally, and even when I want to cut, I just can't. It's so much work and all of that, and I don't feel like the hassle. There was a 3-month period where I really had no urges, but they've been coming back. I have an upcoming top surgery that I am so excited for, and that has kept me clean. Anytime something good happens, the urges come back. I don't cut for the pain but for the scars, not glorifying, please don't do so. I love the scars, and it's almost like it's a treat for myself. It's funny, as it used to be a punishment. Im just posting this to get my thoughts out, I am safe and have been clean, and im not worried about relapsing. It is so interesting how my urges come when things get bad or good, and for different reasons each time.