u/Top_Juice_3127

(15m) All of my life I’ve imagined being a woman, fantasized about it, wanted it, etc. Never thought of it this way until a few months ago when my dysphoria was getting worse and I decided to research. At that point I realized what it was. The dysphoria has been torturous since then, and nothing seems like it could help. Not even transition. If I don’t pass, I’ll feel even worse about myself and my looks than I do now. If I do pass, I highly doubt it would satisfy me. I’d never truly feel as though I were a woman. On top of that there’s the threat of losing friends and family, and all of the other risks that would come with this. I hate not being a woman, but I’m not one and I can’t change that. I don’t know how I’m supposed to live the rest of my life feeling like that.

Why was I born into a self that would know nothing but suffering for being me?

Now, I recognize that he’s not a very good character, but if I’m doing well I shouldn’t be harassed to swap. For example. I was playing very well. 38 assist (most in the match,) 20k healing, and it was a very close match. Everyone was telling me to play a “real” healer. In the final round someone took Ultron just so that I couldn’t. We ended up losing.

I’ve been playing him for the past 2 days, and some matches I do great, but others go absolutely horribly and everyone is complaining about me at the end. Here is one of those bad matches (10769296036) what could I be doing better?

I’ve watched all kinds of tutorials and whatever else that I’m told to by others i ask online about how they learned to draw, but nothing works. I’m just told to draw lines, shapes, and draw more. That hasn’t helped me at all, and then most of the time that I actually try to go draw something, it looks horrible, and I just end up frustrated enough to give up. I’m not seeing even the slightest bit of improvement, and I really want to. I want to make good art so bad😭