A text I can never send to my avoidant ex
i wish we had never met. i wish i had never fallen in love with you. i wish i didn’t know how great a relationship could be. i wish i didn’t daydream about seeing you again and hearing all of the quirky things you say and do. I wish we had never kissed. I wish I didn’t want you as much as I do. i hate that you’ve done this to me. I hate that you’ve ruined what we had. I hate that I can’t listen to a certain musician without thinking of you. I hate that everything reminds me of you. I hate that I don’t want to get out of bed every morning. I hate that I cry myself to sleep every night. I hate that I sit on the floor of the shower and cry because of you. I’ve never acted like this after a breakup before. I hate that you’ve done this to me. But I’m still so in love with you and I hate you for that too.