u/Tough_Objective4958

I'm 19m stuck in a household full of selfish pieces of shit. From the day I was born, I was subjected to witnessing a monster of a father whose acts of violence and infidelity against my mother has built up such a character I will not able to accept as a fatherly figure. He's always trying to paint a picture of him being our savior and without him we'd be on the street and holds that financial leverage to his advantage. I've grown distant from such creature and I've tried to let it be and isolate myself to find a sort of piece for myself. I've struggled with depression due to such reasons and the moment I show the smallest sign of improvement, there is some dramatic act of him that breaks me down again. It's been like this for ages and I'm growing tired. I try to escape but, there's no place for me to go, but soon that's wouldn't matter, I'd rather die on the street than see my progress in recovery being taken away like this. I'm hoping to go to University next year. They constantly bring up how financially dependent that would make me to them (they state this in the most disgusting way, mf I didn't ask to be born as your child), once I get into a university, I'm thinking of cutting them off and finding a job, But until then, they won't let me out of the house, It's a long road of emotional abuse and their own inability to process their shit which they throw at me.