u/Traditional-Kale-167

Ugh. Need to vent, please bear with me.
After a long haul being out of work on disability for almost a year, I found a fully remote job. I was doing okay since starting in early April. Now, things have hit the fan! Out sick today, starting slipping earlier in the week until yesterday, just sitting up
Felt too much, low grade fever, chills, no appetite.
Went to urgent care - flu and COVID ruled out. They’re guessing UTI. I don’t think so.

Today I signed up with a functional care telehealth practice. I can not go on like this - I need to work AND, need to be able to do more than just work. I’ve declined so many social engagements, including with my own dear children.

Call it what you want : long covid; CFS? I don’t really care . It stinks. It started last August with reactivated EBV, then I got the flu, and on the heals of flu , COVID.

This week will be 22 months. I still find that while I’m able to socialize now, the let down, the grief I feel afterwards hurts so much. I used to come home and talk to him and debrief about being out with friends. He was such a profound part of my life. And then this evening, an ambulance and cops were at a neighbor’s home. It brought back that terrible awful morning the ambulance took him to the hospital. From there, right to a hospice. Did I know it would be the last time he’d leave home.