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So I’m on like day 7 of increasing my dose and I’m so confused. Now i’ll take a dose and in about an hour or so feel some relief from the chronic, unceasing health & life anxiety. Then at about the 3-4 hour mark I get hit with crippling insane panic/anxiety for about 15 minutes, then back to relief.

I take it at 5a, 11a, 5p now. Overnights have been horrific bc I wake up with heart palpitations and way too much energy and can’t get back to bed. Or I wake up shot out of a cannon and too panicked to go to work (at 5:30).

Anyone else deal with this?

So basically the title. I’ve had a history of driving anxiety going to/from work. It’s 20 min through farmland and I always think I’m gonna have a heart attack/stroke and be dead before they get to me. Or I’m gonna call 911 and it not be serious and then have a lifetime of medical debt for a false alarm.

My PCP tried a few different things before we settled on upping my buspar to 10mg/3x daily. That seems to be helping a little but it’s only been about a week.

Now, the other problem. I wake up with a panic attack every night about 2-3 hours before work (so 2-3am). My heart feels like it’s fluttering and skipping beats and just triggers mega panic. No urgent care is open so my only treatment would be the hospital, which is a $750 copay. So that’s not happening.

I was debating taking magnesium at night and seeing if that helps. The combo panic every day to/from work and panic overnights now is a brutal cycle bc I just feel permanently burnt out and anxious.

I’m also getting married in October and terrified this anxiety is gonna fuck everything up bc we have kinda a remote destination wedding.

Thanks for reading, idk, what do I do?

It’s an increase from 5/3x daily to 10/3x daily over two weeks. I’m now up to the 10/3.

So I’ve been on 15mg for about a year and it basically stopped doing anything? Like I have huge panic attacks on my 30 min drive to/from work, to the point where I have to pull over bc I think I’m going to die.

PCP’s NP suggested titrating up to 30mg (after a brief trial of propranolol went horrifically). I’m trying to give it a month, but it’s been weird.

Any time I sleep, I wake up with crazy heart fluttering. Like it feels like triple and quadruple beats, but I don’t feel them when I take my pulse? And I wake up feeling really groggy.

I see my doctor in 2 weeks to go over all of this, do I just tough it out until then?

That seems pretty cracked. Especially because in my experience, 19M shorts views can amount to like $1,900.

In the extreme example someone hits 19M per rolling 90 and never breaks 20, they lose almost $6k per year.

Realistically someone spikes, gets a couple months of monetization, then YouTube just keeps the rest of their money until they hit 20M again?

God forbid you take a vacation or have a rough couple months for shorts (looking at you Jan-Mar) - adios monetization.

I’m suspended from the leaderboard too for illegally submitting a tool-assisted speedrun

I guess I’m just asking what fields you’re trying to jump to since it seems pretty obvious our career path has no future and no growth. When is the last time any station anywhere ADDED any non-sales position?

I’ve done my 10 years and thrown probably 150 applications into the void to move anywhere else, with about 3 interviews.

Looking for where yall moved on to.

ESA just ended and I have been loving the vibes. My problem in 2026 is I can’t find many smaller retro runners who stream consistently and I want new people to check out!

Like I already love Lack, Arcus, etc… but who are people from say the N64/PS1 era and earlier that are awesome runners that more people need to check out?

Thank you!!

Long story short: how do you go about checking the remaining testicle?

Long story:
Hey guys, this is causing me a ton of stress.

I’m 5 years out from my orchi and got the all clear earlier this year! But, my other ball is stressing me out lately, mainly bc my oncologist stressed I need to check it constantly.

The problem is… I have a had time getting it far enough from my body to check it? Like because the scrotum has
shrunken over the years, my other testicle stays close to my body and it’s kinda hard to get it to a spot where I can feel IT and not just all the skin around it.

Like last night I tried when I got out of the shower and bc the scrotum skin was harder I thought the entire testicle was hard. Then I relaxed and sat on the bed and got a good angle eventually to check it and calmed down bc it was fine.

But then this morning “just to be sure” I tried to check again and just couldn’t get it in a spot where I could feel the testicle itself.

Has anyone had this problem and how do you go about checking the remaining testicle?