u/TrellTheGayKing

I really wish I had a vagina. I can’t stop thinking about it. I get so insecure about the fact that I don’t have one. I just feel like it would make sex a lot more better and pleasurable. I’d have a hole that’s actually meant to be fucked in. I can’t stand the thought of having to use my fucking asshole and having to go through the exhausting process of cleaning just to get fucked. I’m sorry but my life just sucks right now. Constantly having low self esteem and feeling undesirable. I wish this feeling would go away

I just need to vent for a moment. For quite a while I’ve been feeling a sense of jealousy towards women for how easy their lives are than men’s. I’ve been on the internet lately and I’ve been seeing a whole lot of homophobia aimed mostly at men. And a whole lot of it is coming from women, which tends to disappoint me a bit more because homophobia is usually stronger in men. But lately on the internet it seems like men in general can’t really do much of anything without people feeling the need to make a commentary on it. A man does anything feminine to any degree and he’s instantly made fun of and seen as a joke. Then there’s the issue of whenever a man does something bad he’s immediately implied to be gay as if straight men just can’t do awful things without there being some deep reason. Then there’s also the fact that men can’t explore their sexuality openly in the same way that women can. Nowadays it’s extremely normalized for women to be bisexual or lesbian or like girls in some way. Girls kiss each other for male attention or just kiss each other just because they want to and people rarely bat an eye. But a man does something as simple as holding hands and he’s immediately looked at with disgust. And people would try to justify it by saying that being gay for a woman is different than being gay for a man which I guess is true on some level but that doesn’t mean that the two deserve to have wildly different reactions, especially such nasty and negative ones. I don’t know how to feel honestly. Seeing all of this vitriolic hate and homophobia that people have towards queer men makes me not even like being a queer man even though I really try to. I don’t hate myself or anything but it’s just exhausting being a man nowadays especially a gay one and I know people love to talk about how much “male privilege” men have but I honestly don’t even think I’ve ever experienced it. And what people even describe as male privilege doesn’t matter to me that much. Women definitely have it easier in my eyes and I don’t think there’s anything anyone can say to convince me otherwise. Like I wish I had some of the “problems” that they do

I just want to wish everyone a very happy and safe pride month. Wherever you are or whoever you’re surrounded by, I just want to say that I’m proud of every last one of you. Being black and queer in this world is not easy by any means but it’s also such a unique and beautiful experience. I truly do love being black and queer despite how hard it is and for anyone that doesn’t feel the same I hope you can get to a point where you can. We are beautiful people no matter how hard society tries to make us feel otherwise. Also, extra love towards the black dolls. Y’all are beautiful and amazing as well and I hope you are all safe during these hard times we are currently experiencing. Happy Pride everyone 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️❤️