I didn't have epilepsy until adulthood but man I can't even talk properly anymore is that part of it? I survived crazy things pre epilepsy resulting in ptsd.
I had a epileptic mom but I was realtively normal. Until I trained in boxing and I had a cochlear implant well in a sparring match I got hit hard there and I wasn't the same afterwardsand the malfunction started as static electricity. And it evolved into full on shocks to where it'd shock me so hard in the brain and I was so aware and screaming and convulsing in pain in every waking moment for 3 year and afterwards to the point where I'd headbutt the walls to knock me out because drugs wasn't effectively knocking me out I was a vegetable and suicide was on the tables I told my family and they expedited implant removal. Problem is I'm like sooo much better since then but I can't properly communicate and on and off stuff is huge seizure trigger. Im depressed because unlike you all with the natural way my way was different and so unatural and inhumane caused by human tech.
I've been to a therapist and psychologist and worked the psychological parts but still can't overide my triggers. And behaviors.
And I lawyerd up and lost because they conveniently lost my implant which is evidence. So it's kinda of a depressing situation. Going from PhD to doing the bare minimum.
Im just trying to be normal but fail spectacularly because of temporal lobe stuff is the unatural stuff relatable to you all. I can't be interupped mid sentence and boom grand Mal time. Text format for some reason is a much lighter load still hard. So forgive my spelling and grammar. Im just so limited so I switched to art and started being alone and just draw. I'm not even good for job because I'm too fractured and fragmented to normal things. And some normal stuff Is a trigger do you think that implant electricity cooked me or something?
Edit: And to clarify the implant is gone but the damage is done. Im no longer screaming in pain or anything or in a dark place. It's turned into general-temporal lobe epilepsy on both side with high frequency. But epilepsy is very crippling I wanted to ask around about is it different? and vent about technology ruining my life I didn't agree to the implant I was a kid at the time.