u/Triangle111228

So i came clear about my addiction not because i wanted but because some problems had occurred and someone knocked on my parents door asking for money i had lend from them (made 2 posts about this).

Now my mom has been telling this to my aunt and my brother has been talking about this to his wife and to his best friend.

i keep getting messages from people randomly on Whatsapp saying that my family worries about me. I mean i can understand that but the fact my brother and also my mom has been talking about this with other people is really boiling my blood.

Now thanks to them people are knowing i have an addiction and to be honest addicted or not, i don't want others to know about my problem especially people i don't have anything to do with.

Like yes i can understand that they are here for me (
my family) but the fact what they did is making it worse for me to walk outside now because i know very well how people are. He will tell his spouse, my aunt will tell her daughter and there you go before you know people i don't care about will label me as something they shouldn't even know about.

I am considering taking a break from my family and not visit them for a while like i did. Maybe they will realize the damage they have done this way. Genuinely i am really pissed off for the fact they haven't shut their mouth about this.

Am i wrong in thinking the way i am? Some insight would be amazing.

So i came clear about my addiction not because i wanted but because some problems had occurred and someone knocked on my parents door asking for money i had lend from them (made 2 posts about this).

Now my mom has been telling this to my aunt and my brother has been talking about this to his wife and to his best friend.

i keep getting messages from people randomly on Whatsapp saying that my family worries about me. I mean i can understand that but the fact my brother and also my mom has been talking about this with other people is really boiling my blood.

Now thanks to them people are knowing i have an addiction and to be honest addicted or not, i don't want others to know about my problem especially people i don't have anything to do with.

Like yes i can understand that they are here for me (
my family) but the fact what they did is making it worse for me to walk outside now because i know very well how people are. He will tell his spouse, my aunt will tell her daughter and there you go before you know people i don't care about will label me as something they shouldn't even know about.

I am considering taking a break from my family and not visit them for a while like i did. Maybe they will realize the damage they have done this way. Genuinely i am really pissed off for the fact they haven't shut their mouth about this.

Am i wrong in thinking the way i am? Some insight would be amazing.

Yesterday i made a post where i talked about how someone i owed money knocked on my parents door asking for their money because i wasn't responding to their messages.

My mom and i talked about 2 hours on the phone and i unfortunately had to let them know about my addiction this way. My mom knew something was going on but never would've guessed it was gambling untill what had happened with that person knocking on their door.

So the real experience was today where i had to walk in at work and face my dad (we work together / family business). I never saw my dad like this before, it really got into him what happened and he couldn't even get mad at me which for me was more painfull. He is really hurt deep and that feels so painful i can't even describe.

I told him everything. Literally everything. I acknowledged everything.

I don't know how to go from here on. Time will tell.

I don't know if it's fortunate or unfortunate what happened today and i from the bottom of my heart am typing this out with tears in my eyes.

I owe money to someone and today they decided enough was enough and knocked on my parents door and told them in a very gentle and nice way that they had lended me (their son) money and that i hadn't paid up for months.

I got a call from my mom about 2 hours ago about this and when i heard this from her i wished the ground had swallowed me right there. I felt ashamed, i felt sad, i felt as if i had let my family down.

We talked for 2 hours with my mom and i told her everything. I am from a culture where you don't talk about certain things with your family, especially things that are against the rules in your religion ; gambling (the master of the sins).

To my surprise my mom reacted pretty supportive and believe it or not it felt good.

I am still pretty sad for the fact i made them go through all of this. On the other hand i know that if i can't pay up this debt myself i could expect some help from my parents.

How do i deal with this feeling i am going through? I know that if this hadn't happened my parents still wouldn't know about my addiction. I also think that i will never make them forget about this no matter what i achieve in life..

I am surprised how my dad will react tomorrow since he isn't that gentle as my mom is.

some encouraging words would be welcome and really appreciated. And if there are people that have gone through the same, what can i expect from here on?

If you are not here yet, keep gambling and you will guaranteed go through the same as I and many more in here did.

First it will be your own money you will gamble away. Paychecks will be gone in a day or two at maximum (something you worked hard for a whole month).

After that you will not only lose your paycheck but you will also not be able to pay your bills because the idea of "one more deposit and i am back" will tear through your whole salary. I swear most of the time you realize this once you have lost it all.

So at this point bills have not been paid, and your salary is gone in a couple days. Congratulations because this is where it all starts ; your downfall.

Out of desperation you will this time ask people for loans and will promise them you will pay them back + with an extra ofcourse! Because you know very well that it boosts the chances of them lending you out their hard earned money. What they don't know is that you will guaranteed lose their money gambling and not pay them back at all.

So the day comes and they ask you for their money. Not only will you not be able to give them back their money you gambled away, you also will not react to their messages or phone calls because you are ashamed and scared of their reaction.

So at this point you surely know you are pretty fucked right? So your next move guaranteed will be : Ding Ding!!! You guessed it correct! Do it again..... Another victim you will find, another victim you will promise air in order for them to lend you their HARD EARNED MONEY and you will also lose this before the day comes where you need to pay them back.

Guys if you are in this state, so am i. Be honest to all those people you owe money to. I am a coward because i also have been through the same situation and trust me once you are in my situation things can get very dark. Your thoughts will drive you crazy but know that everything will get better IF you are honest.

I will not say the name of the company but whenever we go out for a couple of drinks, story time comes up and he tells me stuff that are leaving an impact on me.

He doesn't know that i struggle with the same addiction as all those he talks with through the livechat.

People lose mortgages, houses, families and the most important their health.

People will lose thousands and will enter the livechat demanding a bonus and they will add stuff like €30 with 40x wager, it's a way of bullying them for reconnecting in the livechat all the time asking for a bonus.

People will enter the livechat (on a daily basis) and will let them know what they are about to do themselves and some of them will never ever log in on the site anymore.

People will beg to get themselves banned and will mail them a day later if they can unblock their account.

The most painful one he had to hear was that a guy sold his kids jacked in the winter to gamble it online. That guy never logged back in after his €24 deposit.

It's one of the worst addictions and i hope we all can get through this.

You will take loans from people you usually wouldn't even greet when you would see them.

Once you gotten your loans with the most beautiful excuses you could ever think off, the next thing is you deposit this money others worked extremely hard for.

No matter how much you think you are up, you will eventually lose. When you are up you won't pay them back. When you are down you will wake up and realize that you have another debt now, congratulations this is your 10th debt.

I am talking out of experience and i have had people come up to my door because i wouldn't answer them like a coward when they would ask for their money.

Trust me i am lucky since i have seen how other got treated when they have had loans not paid back.

Guys stop depositing a penny to those worthless scums. Trust me you will never permanently make money of gambling. you could be up thousands but eventually greed or boredom will get the best of you and you eventually will lose it all.

It is so beautiful on the other side having money in your bank and being able too buy everything you want / desire. Not having to stress because bills are not being paid ect.

Did a deposit > they made me wait 20 hours before it got added on my balance.

In this 20 hours every bet i was supposed to make, turned out to be a win. I kid you not, everything would've hit making me win a couple thousand.

Because of their error not only did i missed out on this ''win'' i also am very frustrated and sickened.

The money hit my balance just an hour ago and ofcourse i lost that in a minute, everything went the other way.

I closed my account and told them everything i wouldn't even want too describe here but i don't know how to take it from here.