u/TrickChocolate755

I can’t stop eating nuts even if I want to stop. I started eating nuts around 4 years ago and at first I could control how much I wanted to eat, and I only ate almonds and only a little bit of them. But then coming closer to the present, I can’t control myself.
There are times where I would continuously keep eating almonds and walnuts and not stop even when my stomach feels full or started to hurt. There are times I would eat finish a whole bag in one go because I kept taking small portions and then coming back for more. I love the crunch and the feeling of chewing on nuts especially almonds and ive tried to use substitutes (seaweed, crackers, chips, anything I can crunch) but then it still doesn’t help at all because I’d always go back to almonds.
I’ve even tried to eliminate it from my home, but then I always find myself buying them on impulse because I wanted to feel the texture again.
My mom also buys a snack pack of trail mix and I asked her to stop buying, but it seems like she has a huge stash of them stocked up because of how much nuts I’ve ate. And with those snack packs, I’d literally pick out the almonds and walnuts and then throw the rest away, so it adds up to my guilt of wasting food, overeating and money.
I’ve gained the most weight ever in the past 4 years because of it and I seriously want to stop but I can’t, even after finding methods to

im talking to this guy for around 7 months now, were in a talking stage but like were slowly soft launching that we like each other and its kind of obvious between us.
id say our thing is going okay except lately ive been feeling uncertain.
he say he doesnt have a lot of friends, but he does have a couple of online friends that are guys and also girls.
I dont really mind it at all, actually i dont think much about it but something happened that has been bothering me ever since.
one time, i asked if we could play games together and he said ok but later so i waited, but then i went online in the game and i saw him online and i searched and guessed that he was playing with someone else who was a girl
then later on i asked him jokingly like ‘who is [girls name]’ and i said that he lied to me and said he couldn’t play but then he was playing with someone else. He apologised and said the girl was just a friend and i was like ok.
i didnt think much of it at first but then later on (we were in a call) i kept asking him about it then he slowly revealed that the female friend just needed someone to play with and they only played for 1-2 hours. Then i just jokingly said that he betrayed me for another girl then he just said it was impulsively in the moment he did it.
I didnt think much of it after that but then after like a few months or so i saw one of his insta stories (he goes to gym and posts his meals for accountability) and it was a pic of his meal then it was captioned “[girls name] approved”
I didnt ask him about it at all because i dont want to make a whole fuss about it but it has bothered me ever since.
he mentions a female friends name in his story, I’ve never recalled him ever mentioning a friends name in his stories except for that one story.
Ever since then ive always felt insecure even though i have asked him about it and many other things and he has assured me but a part of me always doubts it.
And he also never mentions me in his stories so why suddenly she has that privilege?
And i also feel like im always making a big deal out of something whenever we talk.
i also found saw the girls face from a pfp before and she looks so much prettier than me.
sometimes i just think he’ll be better off with someone else because i dont think i serve much to the table. :(
i dont know if im being way too sensitive about this and im just making a small situation into a huge deal