u/TristanTheRobloxian3

THE POST TITLE, I HAVE WAITED SO FUCKING LONG AND ITS FINALLY OPVER I CAN ACTUALLY START TRANSITIONING LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOO RAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

THEYRE DOING SPIRO FIRST (starting tomorrow. they cantr directly give estrogen to me i aint 19 so i gotta go through one of their other providers... thanks pennsylvania) BUT I DONT GIVE A FUCK IM GONNA BE ON ESTROGERN BY AUGUST IM SO HAPPY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

basically what the title says here.. ive noticed that the day/night cycle is symbolic in my dreams, specifically in terms of how deep the thing i am processing is. things that hit me really hard and/or are not immediately obvious to me are typically set at night time, and if they arent its always at twilight otherwise. dreams that are set during the day are either very obvious to me or dont actually affect me too deeply. typically theyre set at the time i am in the space most often. for my room its around 3-4pm i think..? but yeah.

there was one time i vividly remember where i had 4 dreams back to back where my brain decided to smoke crack and effectively have all of them be fever dreams. dream 1 started during the day, dream 2 was at twilight, and 3/4 (effectively 1 big dream split into two) was night time and daytime... it completed 1 full daylight cycle. i woke up fucking exhausted like id just processed a lot both physically and mentally.

there have also been 4 dreams involving my gender (im trans wowie). one of which i had boobs (was very euphoric and actually felt right) and 3 having a vagina (cus bottom surgery). 2 of these were explicitly during the day and genuinely felt super euphoric, those being the 1 boob dream and the first vagina dream. the latter 2 were explicitly at night and i just.. felt either off or wierd during them and one of them i felt like i was trying to hide something... it was wierd.

its more ridiculous when my siblings are involved, and if they are it always means they are involved in some way with whay the dream represents, whether they contribute something or are antagonists or whatever. it seems like my relationship dynamics with them in person somewhat are mimicked in these dreams which i think is interesting.

the craziest thing of all for these is that these go back all the way to the earliest dreams i do remember, which the first one i do recall was actually my teeth falling out for some reason. it was night and i was in my room, which that last aspect itself is actually pretty common for my dreams too... prob cus im in it so much

so yeah thats my ramble ig. i suppose im also kinda curious what symbolic stuff shows up in yalls dreams too so if you have anything comment it ig