u/True_Confidence_1371

These days I feel like I am truly doing better but the physical issues I have seem to pull me back down.

Without getting into specifics, I am permanently disfigured as a result of a trauma response I had. I am able to appreciate things I am grateful for and try to focus on other aspects of myself I do feel positively about but unfortunately this does haunt me quite a bit. I also deal with challenging related medical issues.

Overall, I try not to let my appearance bother me and I’m getting better at not letting peoples reactions bother me but honestly it does feel like a constant reminder.

Almost a decade on hrt, about a year off roughly. (Was on testosterone off and on towards the end of it, so no precise timeframe, but 8 months completely off). That’s a lot of time. Also had a masectomy, a hysterectomy (luckily still have ovaries) and I just feel so bad still. I see some progress in that I look more feminine but the hair situation is still rough (doing ipl so we’ll see) trying to lose weight since I’m overweight, growing out my hair. But when I look in the mirror I just see a ruined body, and a wasted fifteen years of youth I spent being miserable and trying to change a fundamental, core aspect of myself. I have learned to appreciate being a woman but I feel it’s too late. People don’t really see a man or a woman when they look at me and it affects how I’m treated but also how I feel about myself. I mourn my healthy, unaltered body. It feels like a giant self harm scar now. I really thought all this would help me.

I am trying to be content with what I have (all five senses, a brand new day etc) but it’s hard not to feel down. I try to remember I have the rest of my life to live, but what if it’s all spent ugly and alone? I just wish I could go back. I’m trying to accept life on life’s terms. I feel screwed because when I was fourteen I was sad and desperate and thought this could help alieviate my suffering because I hated being a girl so much. I never in a million years thought I could accept myself as a female. I don’t know how to stop feeling sorry for myself.

Hello everyone,

I’m about 3 years post op. Before, I had a completely flat chest after surgery. For personal reasons, I decided to stop taking hrt approximately 8 months ago. Due to this, my limited remaining glandular tissue has grown back mildly and fat has redistributed to the area (about the size of an AA cup). If you are worried about this I don’t think it would affect passing very much (and this is the most regrowth I’ve heard anyone talk about) but I personally don’t mind it and am happy to have a small chest. However, my issue is with this is that underneath my nipple there is a sort of crease or indent, either due to liposuction or perhaps internal scar tissue on one side only. The other side is noticeable and looks like a typical small chest or moob situation, but the crease on the other side really bugs me. Is there a way to non-surgically reduce the appearance of this? Has anyone else dealt with it? I don’t feel comfortable posting photos.

Thanks!