u/TryingToFindARat

Ive faced so much rejection and bullying in my early life now im so sensitive to judgement and ive hidden my true self from virtually everyone. I wish i had a genuine connection. Ive never been close to anyone because of my fear that they would not like how i am without the front I’ve put up. I keep lying to everyone because im scared they wouldnt accept me if I was myself. I hate so much about myself it so hard to make friends. I wish someone would extend the care I give them to me.

After arguments he instigated or after he was mean to me, I expect him to make it up to me through being extra nice or just doing a Thoughtful gesture. Time has proven he’s not keen on even treating me like a princess after wronging me, and I just don’t see myself with a guy who can’t do that for me.
He told me making it up to me was a stupid concept and that couples should just go back to normal immediately, but my feelings prevent that. So now I’m wondering, do guys genuinely not want to/see the need to do some kind of “repair” first before things go back to normal?