u/UghBurgner2lol

Hi everyone! Longtime reader, first time poster.

I’m 36 and I worked in tech for a few years! Thought it was going to be my forever (even though it was boring as HELL), and then I got laid off. I had to pick myself up and get a new skill quickly so I became an EMT. I live by myself so being an EMT was more of a “I NEED a job” lol and I knew I would get hired quickly. I actually love it but I don’t see myself working for the city so to finally get that stability I’ve been craving I just signed up for welding school!

I am beyond excited. I’m of course worried about starting pay but I do have savings I can nibble off of while I gain more experience.

I currently am an EMT for a construction site so all I do is watch people in all the trades work and build things. It’s been a great way to see what I like / interested in.

My question is: What kinds of things should I be learning before school starts in August. I won’t be able to take their blueprint reading class because it’s in the morning and I work, but I would like to sign up for one online.

I searched so freakin hard but I didn’t find a union that was specific to welding in Baltimore. I’m also wondering if any of yall did one trade (like welding) and then joined an apprenticeship program later? I’m not necessarily in a rush but I’m the kind of person that when I see something I want I just need to start it.

This guy is extremely private, and while with any other questions he asks me, I'm an open book (including private things), for him, my questions are often met with "we aren't at that stage to talk about that yet".

I've been working on becoming secure, and I have done an amazing job. My problem is (😅) because I have a history of not being secure, and I don't get this far. I don't know if I'm overreacting or not.

I feel really deeply (which I'm sure we all do), so I connect with people over emotions and shared personal feelings. Honestly, typing that out made me realize that this situationship possibly isn't the right one, unfortunately. I wish he would open up more, but it doesn't even seem like he cares to or even wants to try. I don't need him to tell me his deepest darkest secrets, but like I'm not joking when I tell you I asked how many siblings he has and he said he wasn't comfortable answering that.

Yesterday, we were having a great time hanging out, and he had been getting lots of texts and responding (which is odd because he rarely responds to mine (lol). He randomly got up like "you know what, I can't be here, I have too much to get done/going on". Didn't explain anything after I asked. He just kissed me and left.

Luckily Im very busy, and thats been a huge help in getting over my anxious attachment style. However because Im busy, If this isnt going anywhere I need to have more time to take a nap lol

I know 100% this is coming from the pressure of constant posting, but do you feel like you aren't allowing yourself to complete works of art?

This came up because I stumbled upon "Art Side of Life" work, and I feel like her work is so beautiful! But in my head, I went "dang, those spreads would take me forever". Next in my head, I went "so what."

NOW I COULD BE WRONG lol but I've had my sticker shop Pop! Baltimore (thank you thank you lol) for about a year, and the speed at which we have to produce is WACK.

Thoughts?

https://preview.redd.it/ta1cdsdx8pyg1.png?width=598&format=png&auto=webp&s=6cec90d94a53806a8235777ca293f71381042dae

Soon...