RANT !
I don’t know where to vent it out.I do have friends but don’t wanna disturb their preparation. My parents are pretty normally people (first gen medico)they don’t much understand what Im going through .Seriously I can’t.I don’t know how people are doing this thing soo effortlessly.Never felt this much low.Yeah will have at least one/ two episodes before university exam but I was sure that I will pass ! I don’t need to perform better than other.I just have to pass!! why this exam measures who’s better than who ? That too after a point it totally depend on luck. NEET PG 25 152-5k 148-10K . With just 4 questions 5k rank difference? Only luck plays the role.Such huge syllabus to be completed in 10 days.I know it will be tough but not this much. Started Revision but crashed on Day 3. Why do I always have such high expectations from myself even though I’m very very average? 7 long years just for this 3 hour exam. In outside world I’m not even worth 40k .Whereas 4 years engineering done you can earn lakhs and crores. Even if I put half this hard work there it would have worked wonders.But this Universe made have no interest in engineering and some interest in biology.(why universe?why?)8 years ago I badly wanna be a doctor. Now I’m…..Not even single happy moment.Last time I was happy was exactly 13 months before. At my graduation,after that only gulit.Even can’t sleep properly. Feel very useless now …now I want some branch verybadly.Even If I got that branch will I be happy ?Or after 3 years again I have to long for other things?
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