u/Unfair_Hand_1766

I'm trying to watch bleach and I have AdBlock enabled, it was working this morning and now it redirects me from the site and gives me pop-ups. (I use operaGX)

I don't know what to do.I'm 15 years old and I can't go on like this.I was always an outsider. Most people paid attention to my twin brother, my parents always had expectations of me. I became dependent on people, wanting everyone to see me (not in a narcissistic way) and to feel that I was seen and not alone.Then at the age of 13 I started getting bullied because I love anime and J-pop.A month before I turned 14, I tried to take my own life for the first time, but I was too scared to do it, I thought about how people would feel.I entered high school and started to feel excluded. I started to surround myself with as many people as possible.

There I met a girl who changed me in a way. She's a very thin girl, who has panic attacks, she's aromantic,smart but with social anxiety that makes her unable to speak I was the only one who noticed, I made her laugh, we became friends, and eventually she asked if we could be together.It wasn't possible, but we continued to be friends. After a while, I felt her drifting away and I tried to keep her as close to me as possible.But unfortunately she was so stressed that she gave up on the friendship because she was starting to have panic and anxiety attacks because I was too insistent.

I understood that I had anxious attachment.

After these events, I began to have a depression that resulted in a suicide attempt, in which I cut my hand but not enough to cut the artery.

I started using the internet to escape, and just when I thought I could get over it, some former friends started commenting on me in other classes and tot say my brother and I are adopted.

And I can't with so much on my mind, I've returned to that sedentary and depressed state and I'm afraid

I don't know what to do.I'm 15 years old and I can't go on like this.I was always an outsider. Most people paid attention to my twin brother, my parents always had expectations of me. I became dependent on people, wanting everyone to see me (not in a narcissistic way) and to feel that I was seen and not alone.Then at the age of 13 I started getting bullied because I love anime and J-pop.A month before I turned 14, I tried to take my own life for the first time, but I was too scared to do it, I thought about how people would feel.I entered high school and started to feel excluded. I started to surround myself with as many people as possible.

There I met a girl who changed me in a way. She's a very thin girl, who has panic attacks, she's aromantic,smart but with social anxiety that makes her unable to speak I was the only one who noticed, I made her laugh, we became friends, and eventually she asked if we could be together.It wasn't possible, but we continued to be friends. After a while, I felt her drifting away and I tried to keep her as close to me as possible.But unfortunately she was so stressed that she gave up on the friendship because she was starting to have panic and anxiety attacks because I was too insistent.

I understood that I had anxious attachment.

After these events, I began to have a depression that resulted in a suicide attempt, in which I cut my hand but not enough to cut the artery.

I started using the internet to escape, and just when I thought I could get over it, some former friends started commenting on me in other classes and tot say my brother and I are adopted.

And I can't with so much on my mind, I've returned to that sedentary and depressed state and I'm afraid