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i feel as if i’m in a relatively healthy relationship where we really love each other but i’m convinced i’m slowly driving him away. his anxiety seems so much worse since we’ve started dating and i assume it’s because of me, but he swears it isn’t. should i just break up with him to free him from being with me? does anyone here really truly love anyone with bpd? should i be worried about him leaving me? i dont feel like he would leave but i feel like im ruining his life. but at the same time i go to my iop group therapy program 4 days a week for 3 hours and meet one-on-one with another therapist once a week for an hour, so should i blame myself when i’m trying as hard as i can? i just can’t help but feel like i’m evil and don’t try hard enough to mitigate my symptoms. am i trying hard enough? he says he appreciates how hard im trying but if there’s minimal positive affects how could he be telling the truth? and all the dialogue online about how people with bpd don’t deserve to be in relationships and break up with their partners to free them, is that true? if i really love him should i show him that love by breaking up with him?

i know this was a lot but if anyone has any thoughts let me know.

i really really can’t afford to pay for my dues this year, including housing. my sorority (alpha chi) offers a status where i can get my dues waived for the year. like i do have actual reasons why i cannot pay my dues but im scared it won’t be enough.

my reasons are that my grandma has 10k dollars in unpaid medical bills (i live with her and this came on very unexpectedly), my dad financially supports her but he’s unemployed, im drowning in student loan debt, and my mom financially supports her dad. also i could only work a little bit this summer (where i usually work full time) because of severe mental health and physical health issues. additionally if i have to drop i dont have anywhere else to live because my family lives across the country. is that enough reasons or no?

has anyone been granted this status? and what did you say if you were granted it. cause if i’m not granted it i’ll have to drop (which i really really really do not want to do).