I feel like Im obligated to stay with my parents, because they'll fall apart without me. Has anyone else dealt with this?
Just as the title says. Im 17m, and a few days ago I went to a friends house for three days. It was fun, but it was a pretty starch reminder of how hell mine is LMAO. But the main thing was that it made me feel really guilty about my intentions of leaving in the next 2-3 years because of how just a 3 day absence seemed to affect them. My mom looked REALLY bad, and told me she hadn't slept whatsoever and was exhausted and barely able to do anything having to deal with the kids (makes sense; one is mentally ill, one is lazy as shit and has a constant attitude, the third is medium needs autistic.)
The clothes were just piled up as well as the kitchen being an utter mess. My mom has been telling me over and over the last few days how much she loves me, how much she missed me, how she doesnt know what she's going to do when Im 18 and gone. Shes even straight out told me Im "not allowed" to leave, and that if I try to she'll put bars on the window. It makes me a little uncomfortable because theres definitely some degree of emotional incest in there (shes straight out said she wishes I was her husband instead while drunk as well as a lot of other things) but Im the only one in the house who helps and supports her so I cant blame her.
My dad was less direct about it, but my mom said every day I was gone multiple times hed ask if I called or messaged and if I was coming home soon, and hes been asking me to help with a lot more stuff the last two days too. I can tell hes definetely happy Im home to help again, even if it was such a short period of time. Compared to what my mom said happened the three days I was gone, they arent fighting as much either. Its just all made me feel like I CANT leave.... I know its not my responsibility, but neither of them are really bad, at least not in a way I can feel like I can justify ever leaving with what I know itll do to them. Has anyone else felt this way?