u/Unlucky-Ambition-643

I just realized Christmas fucking sucked nearly every year when I was growing up. I would get subpar gifts as asshole mother needed her cancer sticks and booze. However, I can live with that more or less. But, starting fairly young my asshole mother ALWAYS worked Christmas Eve/Christmas Day for the “extra money.” I was her only offspring, there was no other family closeby. I was always alone and fuck me, the pain of that just came roaring back! I would decorate the tree by myself, try to watch some Christmas movie. Feed myself. I used to spend nights alone when I was 7-8 because she was partying.

I am Gen X and I am hyperindependent and have been for decades. It is not good.

At least I found my husband and we have kids. I tried to make Christmas absolutely magical.