u/VerifiedHeroo

To be fair, I'll admit that I have tried getting over the addiction of watching porn for 5 years straight, it's been a huge struggle and was destroying my mind each time I tried to get rid of it.

Now, when I simply looked at it once more, I don't feel hard anymore, my sexual dopamine doesn't kick in and I feel rather dissapointed more than pleasured each time.

Is this because the amount of times I've released semen (pre-t) it just said "fuck this, this isn't healthy for you anymore." and decided to not make me into that addiction now? (15mtf)

On the Internet I have seem some, not most but some people talking about transgender stuff. Then I saw some specific comments saying "how trans people rambling on about their pride is annoying."

Personally I feel attacked and offended, however I didn't want to pointlessly start a fight with em so I left em alone. Is there anyone who could educate me on this? Incase I do encounter this in person, thanks!

Has anyone realised how the Internet treats us trans or goth people? I've went over videos and all I see is:

"Omg you're so hot.."

"I wished I was carried by a mommy.."

"Damn beautiful!"

and etc.

Heck, there's this 1 youtuber who I'm not going to mention incase of harassment. They're saying that they want a goth girl with supposedly big "titties" or "ass", honestly I seriously don't get the fucking sense of disgusting people and their minds.

If you look at cis girls videos filled with comments, they're less likely to have these type of weirdos compared to trans people. Like..bro we just never felt right with ourselves as a whole, we transitioned to feel our true identity and nature.

I suppose that's how the downside of the world is unfortunately, but seriously this needs to be more talked about.

They'll think of us being so sensitive, and say "Why are trans people so scared to come out these days?" WELL HERE'S YOUR ANSWER.

Everytime I shave em, it just feels so sweet and beautiful omg!!!!

Perhaps this morning ain't a good morning, I went to my local McDonald's in the city. I ordered my favorite breakfast, the hash browns and along with rice. (I'm Asian.)

Whilst I was eating joyfully while watching on my phone, some woman came up to me and sat down beside me. Sure I'm not the type of person to talk much, but I suppose my brain went all coocoo crazy. Without hesitation I asked her about having long hair, and guess what? she looked at me with a bit of frustration rather than interest.

She responded with a rude tone: "You're a boy! And if they do have long hair they're just delusional!" And that insult didn't made me dysphoric, but rather very offended and pissed. I looked at her with genuine disgust as I addressed myself as a trans girl, I had enough of being treated like a moron so I stood up for myself channeling all my Asian dad energy into me, snapping:

"Well you're the delusional one for being so fucking ignorant around others "Ma'am"! People like you should have proper therapy rather than believing the damn Internet that trans people are bad all the time!"

I'm not exactly sure whenever this was purely overkill or not, but everyone looked at me with suprised expressions as I was glaring at her with my eyes. She looked at me with a rather scared emotion, and then ran away out of the door without a single word.

Nobody tried to stop me because they knew I would go all enraged on em, I was never meant to be scary in the first place. You see, people who are the most quiet can be the most traumatic when triggered.

Mind you, im still in my "boyish" body, I haven't even started HRT or Estrogen yet. But that feeling felt so good I just relaxed in bed after that nonsense...

Name's Araminta by the way. 🏳️‍⚧️

A normal day at boring college, doing lessons that are the norm. My best friend and I are still friends for 4 years straight, having laughs and humor.

But today was different, the morning went normal, it was until lunch. Me and my other friends gathered around a table that we usually sit at, making jokes and all. My best friend joked about how my brother was supposedly fat (in a banting way, not rude.) and then I mimicked him as he was just doing his words.

He noticed me and glared with a "smile", and told me this in a threatening type of way whilst pointing:

"I swear to God I'll start using your deadname dumbass!"

And that hit me like sisyphus's boulder, never in my years of knowing him I did not dare to make fun of his personal life. I cheered him up and helped him when he was in danger, and he also did that to me aswell.

I stayed quiet and felt so offended, I couldn't even tell him how I as feeling because I feared the worst. I knew it was such a serious thing but he just laughed it off.

Can anyone please help me on what I should do before I accidentally go too far? I can't stop feeling dysphoric with myself..

Today was actually great, skipping through the boring stuff it was PE time. Me and my friends gathered up for a few rounds of cricket, hit the ball and run.

I did good but kind of folded on the last turn, almost hit the annoying kid on accident which made me chuckle. My best friend was trying hard not to laugh since we made it quite funny.

After a bit of humor, it was time to go home. We got into the hall, but however my teacher unusually came towards me and I thought I was in trouble.

Unexpectedly, she asked me what was my new name rather than my deadname. I was like "hold on wtf?" with enough courage I said.."It's Ara."

She gave me a wink and called me by my real name, I thought I'd never have such a europhoric moment again but hit me like a truck! I shouted with joy while some people did look at me awkwardly but I didn't care, because it was 2nd best moment in my life.

Although my real name is Araminta, I'm hoping for everyone to understand and learn about me.

Currently people call me by deadname but it depends on the person since almost all the students don't know who I actually am as a trans girl. 🏳️‍⚧️