u/ViewDue6427

HELP. so me and my bf have been together for 1,5 years. this year i have almost brocken up with him for 3 times. 1 time he lied about his former girlfriend and brought her up many times telling me they had sex all the time blah blah very toxic stuff. 2 time his mother actually hates me and says all stuff like im not part of the family and i ruin his sons whole life. he didnt really take my side he just said thats wrong of his mother to do. the mother acting like a bitch has lasted 6 months now and she cant stop being a bitch to me. and now today 3 time. im so over this shit that his mother says that i ruin his life, also it bothers me that i have two times found porn on his phone and now he says that i ruin his hobby for asking him few times to skip practise for our aniversity and my pet going to hospital. when he is mad he yells at me and tells me to shut the fuck up even when he knows i cant stand yelling because its a trauma. then after 1 hour he apologises very very much and then i remember that when its good with him its very good but when its bad i just want to die. he is my only friend at school (we are 17) i have a best friend in different school that i rarely see because he hates her. but anyways i cant get myself to break up because i dont want to be alone and also i dont wanna waste only chance in getting a highschool sweetheart bf….. what do i do