Why are relationships just so... AGH

I can't talk to anyone without them wanting to leave me it feels like.

I talked to my mom for the first time in forever and she told me she hated me, and the two people I thought were my friends have been talking about me behind my back for months and the people who still stand by me don't understand anything that's going on in my life because I can't figure out how to tell them anything and I keep lying to everyone I know about the worst things and I can't stop it

And I can't get therapy or HRT because it's too expensive so i'm just stuck getting worse every single day (though it probably wouldnt even help)

u/ViolentPurpleSquash — 2 months ago