u/VisibleMood7150

#whyme #thisshitsucks wish my brain would turn off and I could live my life

How do you guys cope when alone? I am moving away for a job for a couple months and I usually get my ocd really bad when I am isolated, or I have time to myself where I’m doing nothing. I struggle bad it’s HOCD/SO-OCD and ROCD, so any advice so I don’t crash out would be great!

How do yall get out of an HOCD spiral? Or make it better? Mine are always so horrible and I don’t know who I am, and I always have a hard time changing what I’m thinking about or how to be productive. Sometimes I get burst of wow I’m fine, how could I think like that but then it comes back so fast.

F20 this is one of the hardest things to grasp for me, and I’m wondering if it is for anyone else? But for the longest time I mainly get off to lesbian p0rn, and erotica, even though I’ve identified as straight. I can watch straight p too, but it’s not as like arousing sometimes. I also use masturb@tion as a coping mechanism sometimes so I have watched p0rn too much sometimes, and sometimes it goes too far where I’ve sexted anonymously with men and women and I get off to both. I just don’t understand how I can do that and say I’m straight. This bothers me so much and my HOCD makes me think I must be lesbian because of this. like why would I do this and fantasize some lesbian things if I want men? I know other people struggle with some stuff like this so you’re not alone

I have major commitment issues, I’ve only dated once and it ended quickly because I suddenly panicked and broke up with him. Everytime I try to date a guy I get extremely anxious and I just want to run away. This has made HOCD horrible, because it makes me think I must be a lesbian because of this. I am terrified to kiss a guy, and I get anxious and back out at the opportunity, even though it’s something I want, I also over analyze everything about a guy I liked body (I felt horrible). I would get anxious when the guy I liked took his shirt off maybe because he wasn’t conventionally attractive. It’s just hard to figure out what I’m attracted to and this has made HOCD so hard because I feel like I should be able to tell when I’m attracted, or why can’t I just date someone. Anyone relate?